Thursday, July 21, 2011
So. . .as it goes, you get off of your regimen and the weight comes back on. So I have gained about 15 lbs back. (It doesn't reflect it on my ticker b/c I REFUSE to change it - don't judge me!!!) How do I feel about it you ask? A little sad, yes. Depressed, HELL TO THE NO!!!! I am still 38 lbs down from where I originally started a little over a year ago so I am very happy about that. Now, I just need to get focused again and do what I did the last time to lose this weight again!
It is so amazing to me how I have progressed emotionally and mentally. This time last year I would have given up and gone back to eating cheeseburgers and fries everyday and just said, "Hey, God mad me this way so I guess I am just supposed to be fat." But the truth is, He didn't make me this way. I made me this way. What He did do is give me the determination and motivation to lose 53 lbs and I am a firm believer that if he did it then, he can and WILL do it now!!!! I have seen me sacrifice, I have been the sweaty monster and I'll be here again all in the name of losing weight that this time WILL NOT come back on!!!!
I am one week back from a wonderful vacation where I got to just lay around and do nothing. In that tine of doing nothing I prayed a lot and ask God to help me like he did the last time. Of course I have been tempted a bit since I have been getting back to the basics, but I have been winning the small battles so I know the war is all mine!!!!