Wednesday, July 20, 2011
I'm writing this for myself. Just a rambling of thoughts I have about how I feel and where I want to go from here. There are no big revelations here for most people but sometimes it just helps to put things in writing. It gives weight to them and makes it harder to turn back.
I'm at a point now after 2 months on SparkPeople that I realize I need to get real with myself. Let me clarify that this is actually the 3rd time I joined Spark, but this is the longest I've stayed with it and the most active I've been as far as tracking, etc. But today I realize how much more I should be doing. The fact that I am writing this down is a big step for me. Usually by this point I either get bored and go back to my old habits or I have done so good that I don't think I need to follow 'the program' anymore. But just acknowledging that I may be at that point and resolve to not go backwards again is pretty big for me.
Here's what I know. I've been pretty good about 'watching' what I eat, although I realize if I don't write it down I'm not doing any good because I don't really know what I've put in my mouth by the end of the day.
I also know that I've GOT to move! To say that I hate to excercise wouldn't exactly be true. Once I get started I actually can enjoy it. I love the feeling I get working my muscles (that are buried too deep at this point, but I can still feel them work). I love the feeling of accomplishment after I've done whatever excercise I choose that time. And I also KNOW that it works. I've highlighted KNOW because that's what gets me most of the time. I KNOW so much about what I SHOULD be doing. Now I need to get to the point of DOING what I need to be doing. What keeps me from doing it, I don't know. I've got all kinds of excuses but they're not worth the effort it takes to make them up. The fact is I just need to DO IT! So my plan now is to excercise in the evening. I've always preferred to do it in the morning..start my day on a good note...have my time before everyone else is up for the day pulling me in five different directions. But the reality is this...I already get up at 5:30 am and I don't WANT to get up any earlier; my mornings are already crazy enough. I think I will like doing it in the evenings; what's wrong with ending my day on a good note.
One more thing I plan on doing TODAY is finally making that motivational poster I've been planning in my head. I have goals; I know where I want to be at some point down the road; but I think it would be really helpful to have a visual of it right in front of me. I plan on posting it along side a workout calender and a water chart to keep track of how much water I drink (that's another biggie I know I should be doing more of). I am going to post these in the area where I excercise. Problem is..that is in the basement where I only go when I'm going to work out. So I'm also going to post a picture of a future me on my bathroom mirror as motivation to make that trip to the basement.
These are a few real things that I am going to do for myself to prevent myself from slipping back into the complacent life I've lead for far too long.