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Looking hard for that silver lining

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Hello Sparkpeople-land where I've been absent from for about 2 months now. I've still been tracking when I can but I've totally checked out socially. :(

The last month brought some huge changes for me that I'm still adjusting to, some good and some bad. I got to go home (Denver) for a week and spend time with my wonderful family and adorable niece. It was crazy to see my friends at home and how much they're changing. Some of them are already married with kids. That scares me! I'm not ready for that kind of stuff yet...

Also last month was *drumroll* the wedding in Mexico!!!! Fitting into that bridesmaid dress was the whole reason I joined SP back in March and I'm happy to say that I both looked and felt good there. In fact, I was so active, swimming, jetskiing, walking on the beach, and eating lots of tropical fruits, that I think I may have shed a pound or two down there. Jenny's wedding was amazing! The ceremony was beautiful and I can't believe (just like with my friends at home) that people are starting to pair off and get married. I had a great time in Cabo and would love to do it again with my same friends from college sometime soon!

And then onto the not so great stuff...the part where I can't find that silver lining no matter how hard I look. After fighting and an accusation of cheating on him in Mexico, Harrison and I decided to break up after over 3 years together. I wasn't sure that I could see myself being happy with him for the rest of my life and his accusation of me of cheating on him brought up a whole bunch of trust issues, etc. We're trying to still be on good terms, but it's hard. We were living together, so now I have a new place that's pretty nice, but is in a totally new neighborhood where I don't know anyone.

Both of us had gotten used to the idea of always having someone around to do things with. He's from the Seattle area and still has a lot of friends from his childhood around. Me, being a transplant...well I just don't have the same type of friend network here. Being alone is lonely. Luckily, I have a couple of friends from school and I have Shimmer, otherwise I might go crazy. Too bad I'm super shy or I could just get out there and try to meet people...

Breaking up and the fighting that came before it and after Mexico wrecked havoc on my healthy eating and exercising. I stopped tracking my food. I stopped running. I took Shimmer on short, short walks and I started eating out at the cafeteria at work every day because I didn't have the energy or motivation to take my own food. The scale ran in the wrong direction for a long time, so I'm back now. I'm trying to get back on track with my eating and exercising. Just because I'm lonely doesn't mean I have an excuse to sit around eating all day, getting fat.

I'm going to give SP my all for awhile. I might even try resurrecting my photo blog challenge thing that I quit on. I'm going to need help though...and it's going to be hard.
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HELENKATHLEEN5 8/2/2011 11:28AM

    Awesome that you fit into and felt good in your bridesmaid dress! And I'm sorry to hear about what's been going on. I'm shy too so I know how you feel about getting out there to meet new people. My best friends are moving away in the fall, so I should be doing the same thing, but it's hard! Glad that you're checking back in on here though!

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SAPPKI 7/25/2011 11:57PM

    Things will get better. I just moved to a place where I know NO ONE! And I'm so bored my head hurts. But things get better every day. I joined a spark group for the new city and I am going to try to make it to the farmers market on Saturday to meet a fellow sparker. And you always have SHIMMER :)

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DZSWEETIE2005 7/19/2011 2:57PM

    Glad you have found your way back. This is a great place to get motivated as you already know!

"A year from now you'll wish you started today"

:)

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RSQBOB 7/19/2011 1:39PM

    Sorry to hear about your situation. Sometimes life sucks. I have had some pretty bad situations in my past that have lead me to a great today. It's best to continue being thankful for what you have and learn to love yourself enough to start healing.

Best wishes. If you believe you can do it, you will.

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LORTHOM2001 7/19/2011 1:23PM

    welcome back!

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