This is a question that I keep asking myself... why?

Why is it that I can't get my butt in gear?
Why can't I stop eating crappy foods?
Why do I look at pictures of me now and see the same girl that I was at 232 lbs 6 years ago?
Why am I buying clothes that are bigger than they should be?

I ask myself these questions and I don't know the answers to them. I keep saying that I want to do this, and yet can't seem to get my act together. I'm disappointed in myself for letting myself go like this again. I need help and don't know where to start...

I started off good at the beginning of the year, then I had surgery, and everything went to hell in a hand basket. I got lazy and now here I am with almost 35lbs back on again and I'm miserable. I'm not getting any younger, and need to get my "poop in a pile". I just feel like a broken record who keeps saying that I need to do this, but yet don't do it.

Any advice on how to get going and keep going? I can't keep going on like this, something has to give. :(

Thanks for listening to my vent