Sunday, July 17, 2011
Life is full of setbacks, unsupportive (I know that isn't a word) people, obstacles in the way, critical people, limited opportunity, crushed dreams, time restraints. Excuses - all of it. I refuse to be defined by someone else's opinion of me. I refuse to be defined by the various bumps in the road. And I won't be defined by the looming obstacle that I have yet to overcome!
I know that setbacks are invaluable because they help me evaluate my life and make adjustments.
My most recent setback is my lack of desire to turn on my computer. No computer, no Spark People. The thing that really concerns me, I didn't care. In fairness, I did have a stomach virus all week. There were 2 days that I could not keep down a cup of water sipped throughout the day. I have lots of questions of how I contracted this nasty bug that way-layed me for 5 days, but no answers.
Now of course, this happens just days after I am finally able to walk around unassisted after my knee injections. As of today, ALL swelling is gone, I have almost full range of motion, (can pull my knee to my butt), but pain still keeps me awake at night. The pain issue could be because I HAVEN'T BEEN OUTTA BED IN ALMOST A WEEK. It's been a hard road, but I plod on.
It seems everytime I'm on SP this past year or so, it is a pity party. I thought getting on SP was helping me work through these roadblocks - now it just seems like I'm being a crybaby. I came *this* close to saying goodbye to my Spark Friends and cancelling my SP account.
Does anyone else go through this? I've been on SP 6 years and this is a first. I learned long ago being a member of many teams does not help - that just means more computer time - one of my 'issues'.
I hope it isn't gone forever. It just HAS to be here!