Wednesday, July 13, 2011
So I bought a scale...finally!!! I haven't weighed myself since I've been in New York, which is about six weeks!! It was only $13 from a sketchy surplus/closeout type discount home supplies store. It works, anyways. I feel like it may be up to five pounds too light, but that's not too important. I just need to know if I'm losing or gaining. I weighed in at 181.6 and this morning was down to 180.6. YAY!! This whole lifestyle change is something that I need God's help with. I can't do it. I can't change myself. God has to change me completely. I've tried for years to change myself and I can't. It has to be a supernatural change. I've realized that environment and circumstances don't change me. I mean I'm in a pretty perfect environment here in NYC as far as eating and working out goes, but even that didn't change me. I realized one day that only God would change me. I never ever would be able to change myself or get this victory in myself. BUT through Him, the victory and change in unquestionable. Praise God.
Since it's the middle of the summer and it's HOT and I don't feel like cooking or eating anything hot and/or heavy, I've been relying on a lot of quick easy foods. Also, using the fridge is an exercise in frustration because it's so full (we ARE getting more fridges, praise God and thank you Tim!!). So I bring a few simple things to the fridge at work and keep it there. I like buying uncured ham and rolling it up with pre-sliced cheese in different varities: cheddar, provolone, muenster, etc. Buying a block of cheese is a lot cheaper, but I tend to eat way more. So buying it pre-sliced is better!! I also buy bags of pre-wash pre-cut broccoli and baby carrots and have those with ranch. And I've been buying no-fuss fruit: I've eaten a TON of cherries, blueberries, and raspberries as well as bananas and canned pineapple. I've had the odd mango or peach or apple. I just bought some whole wheat wraps to have with my ham and cheese and well as hummus for the carrots (to snack on at work) and individual cottage cheeses. Clif bars have become my backup go-to meal/snack. They're expensive at the health food store, but $1/each on sale at Stop and Shop and $.99 at Trader Joes. Breakfast is usually Kashi cereal, sometimes dry, sometimes with shelf stable milk, sometimes with some of my coffee on it lol. Powdered creamer is on of my Clean Eating exceptions...it's completely fake sugar laden crap but I really don't want to go over to the kitchen at 6am and we make our coffee here too strong to drink black. I discovered that Chef Boyardee makes Beefaroni, ABCs, and Lasagna in a whole grain variety, so I've been eating some of that too. Again, not the healthiest, but it's a super convenient go-to food, especially when I have to eat dinner while working. It has a peel back lid (no can opener required!!) and I just eat in right out of the can. The whole can has 500-550 calories, so that plus some fruit or veggies is my meal. And they're on sale for $1/each too!! Still learning to balance money, convenience, time, and health, which is a difficult thing to do. God give me wisdom!!