Wednesday, July 13, 2011
I have learned a lesson today. It is a lesson that I have learned many times in the past, but apparently my I must be pretty thick-headed since I keep on having to learn this one. I spent years feeling sick most of the time because of what I put into my body. When I was at my heaviest I would constantly overeat and I would eat junk. It made me feel sick to my stomach, sluggish, etc. When I started this journey, the first thing I noticed was how much better I felt when I wasn't overeating and I was eating wholesome, nutritious food. It was amazing! I had no idea just how terrible I felt until I saw how much better I could feel.
Since those days I have changed the way I eat, but every once in a while I regress for a day, a week, sometimes longer. Yesterday was one of those days and I felt the effect immediately. I started out the day with the best of intentions. I made a nice healthy breakfast, lunch and snack to bring to work. But then my coworkers wanted to go out for lunch. Who am I to turn them down? lol So I went out for lunch and had a few slices of pizza. I didn't stuff myself, I was just satisfied, but that's still a lot of calories. I thought "Ok, now I'll just eat healthy for the rest of the day." Ha! that didn't happen. I proceeded to eat candy, cookies, my healthy snack, and topped the night off with an ice cream sandwich (Skinny Cow, but still no good). That's right, I skipped dinner completely and filled up on junk.
So what's the price to pay? Within a few hours I started to get gassy. That lasted most of the night. Today I'm still paying for it with heartburn, diahhrea, and general sluggishness/tiredness. I feel like total crap. When will I learn this lesson for good? If I stopped at the pizza I would have been just fine. If I strayed with a single cookie I would have felt ok today. But I keep falling in this trap.
I often have stomach issues even when I'm eating well, but it just adds insult to injury when I do this to myself. I'm sick of feeling sick. This last month or two has been particularly difficult. I had poison ivy over a large portion of my body. That is mostly healed now, but I still get random itches. I've had the flu (or something similar) that kept me home on the 4th of July and the 2 next days, random migraines, heartburn, stomach issues, and a recurring feminine issue which we aren't even going to get into right now. Top that cake with insane hours and stress from work and I feel terrible. I'm sick of feeling sick. I need to do everything I can to keep myself healthy and sane when times are tough. Enough self-sabotage with the food binges! I'm done learning this lesson!