Made it thru the weekend
Monday, July 11, 2011
Okay, well, I made it. It wasn't a diet extravaganza, but it was a relatively successful weekend. What I did discover is that I'm addicted to coffee--I know because I tried to give it up, and didn't have any on Sunday (I ran out) and woke up today with the Headache from Hell.
So, okay, I bought more coffee and I'm fine. I had tried to cut it out since I read that coffee could be responsible for depressed moods, but I'll just have to work on something else to elevate my thinking.
Most of the conventional wisdom states that sugar, red meat and junk food is responsible for causing depression, as the hormones get all imbalanced when you eat this stuff. So I can cut down on the sugar (in progress) and the red meat (ditto) and the junk food (done) and hope for better days.
I don't lose weight very fast. There are other women in our weight loss group who have already lost 7 pounds, and I've only lost 2--if that, since I weighed myself initally at the fattest time of day, and then again at the skinniest, which as everyone knows can cause weight fluctuations.
I haven't lost weight quickly since I was in my 30s. How depressing! When I was on Optifast a few years ago, it was a struggle to peel away those half-pound increments. A two-pound week was a major victory, bought at horrific cost in terms of moment-by moment hunger and wretchedness.
So heck, I haven't wanted to do THAT again. But I want to be healthy and not tired anymore, and I want to buy my clothes in a regular-size clothing store once more, and I want to look nice. I want to smile for the camera and know that the final result will be an attractive snapshot of a pleasant looking person with only one chin and a trim waistline.