Sunday, July 10, 2011
What Princess mean to me…. Its one of those things that I can’t really put into words, but once again I am going to try because it illustrates that no matter where you are now, it doesn’t have to dictate where you can go if you just believe that you can.
First off, you should know that my family (biological and in-laws) are Disney freaks! We love Disney. In my family, it was all about the movies. We would watch them over and over growing up and there are a few (Beauty and the Beast, Little Mermaid, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Aladdin, and The Lion King) that my brother and I have seen literally HUNDREDS of times. In my husband’s family, it was all about Disney World. Matthew has been there about 13 times, I believe. So when we married it melded the two together. I guess we have become super freaks! It takes a couple of years for us to save enough money to be able to go to WDW and every time we do it is completely magical. We are not afraid to let go and be a kid again and get sucked in to the Disney Magic. In November we will go again, and we will take Hayden for the first time.
Anyway, as much as I love going to WDW, there is always a sense of apprehension about going. In the past, I didn’t fit comfortably in airplane seats. So I took up my seat and part of Matthew’s too. Embarrassing isn’t a strong enough word…. Same rang true for ride seats, bus seats, and basically anything else that I had to fit my oversized rear end into. I had a hard time having the energy to do all that walking. There were frequent breaks. I was also over the weight limit on some rides, not that I actually TOLD anyone that fact. Again, embarrassing isn’t a strong enough word. My constant fear was that I would be asked to get off a ride (it never happened, but I still worried that it would!) However all of that has changed. That person is a mere shadow of the person I am today. I am more excited than ever to go on my WDW trip in November, and my trip in February to run Princess will be a dream come true.
The Magic Kingdom’s fireworks show, Wishes, is my favorite night time show. Standing there watching the fireworks above Cinderella’s Castle brings me to tears every time. I have stood in front of that Castle, watching those fireworks at the lowest, darkest time in my entire life. Even then, from the bottom of the darkest hole, I could stand there and feel that magic. Feel that hope that anything is possible. That dreams can come true if you believe that they will, believe that they can.
They can, you know, if you work hard for them. In February, I will be in front of that Castle again, but this time, I won’t be broken. I will be strong. I will run through that castle. I will be running my 6th Half Marathon. I will stand there, not afraid of what I was letting hold me back. I will not be the fractured broken person I spent so much time thinking I was. I’m not going to be broken hearted. I’m not scared anymore. I am not weak.
I am capable. I am strong. I am confident. I am a Princess in Training!
A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true