Here's what I said to myself: I quit. I freakin' quit. This sucks. I'm too stupid to lose weight. I can't do it. What's wrong with me? This is too hard.


Here's what I ate: brownie


Here's what I did: logged onto sparkpeople, wrote this blog.


Here's what I feel: defeated by myself


That's the problem-I did this to myself. No one else did this to me. I was the one who didn't exercise the last 2 weeks. I was the one who ate too many desserts. I wish I could get mad at someone else for this, but there's no one but me. My problem seems to be that once I get a little bit of success, I slack off and don't keep pushing myself. I hate to end this on a sad note, but I don't want to write some platitude about buckling down, or starting again. I frankly don't want to start again. I want to eat some more and be lazy and say I don't care. The problem is that I do care. I care A LOT. I looked at my vision board and that's all still true. I'm further away now than when I started. I weigh more now than when I started this program. This sucks. But I won't quit. I can't quit. I'm stuck with me forever. I'll keep going to the gym and logging my food and trying. But I'm not sure it will work. I'm actually pretty sure that it won't.