I am finding myself sleeping again...well not exactly...staying up too late and sleeping in...I am up late on the internet till after 12 and sleeping in till 10 sometime 11...not good...Gotta cut out Rock Star in the late afternoon and coffee...and when I try to sleep I toss and turn thinking about Joel and Woofie...Worried about finances...I took a $600 hit at the Vet... that was NOT in my budget...but It was good I had just gotten paid so I was able to take Woofie in ...basically it was my food and gas money for the month...so God will have to provide...or I will have an induced fast real quick and be in lockdown mode for travel...I will update you with how God provided for me at the end of the month. He has always amazed me when I am at the end of myself...

I had my surgery for my pre-cancerous mole last Tues...put Woofie down Thursday... After the surgery they explained all the wound care instructions and the kicker was NO EXERCISE!

I just started having fun and finally starting to understand the Zumba routine on Mondays and enjoying Aqua Fit the rest of the week...I felt I was moving toward my goals finally! But.....No can do only LIGHT WALKING! Code for gramma slow!!!! I am not suppose to put pressure on the stitches since the wound is on the back of my calf...no extending it...and stairs one at a time! And the big kicker NO pool or swimming...Ok just shoot me in the head while you're at it!

I went to Bartells Drug store later that week when we finally got sun and asked the guy there if they had any real good bandaides that were waterproof...and he showed me...these were mega waterproof...So I got several boxes..Hey it finally got sunny here and I aint gonna stay out of my new pool...I floated happily that day and the waterproof bandaid worked like a charm...

When I got my stitches out they repeated the no exercise rule...I said ok why...my stitches are out...oh yes but the inside stitches will break! I said OK WHen can I finally exercise...answer...in about 8 weeks...Great when my summer is over and I am back at school...
OK GOD I NEED SOME HELP HERE!

I guess God does His best work when we are broken, lost and humble...I took Bunny for a slow light walk yesterday and I was crying out to God...later when we were almost home a divine appointment...I met a Korean woman with her little dog...Bunny instantly ran to her and we got to talking I was telling her about Woofie and loosing Joel ...she had lost her other dog 13 years old and her sister, and said stay close to God...I cried...she hugged me...Wow God is so Good what are the odds I would run into anyone that could relate and could hug and encourage me in the LORD...I just thank God He listens to my cries....Thank you Lord!!!!!!!!!!!! He WILL NEVER LEAVE ME OR FORSAKE ME! I rejoice in HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!

So today a few of my old school pals from the 9th grade are all coming over with my best friend since I was 5 ...Karen...she just lost her brother Bruce...and Elaine I heard just lost her daughter! Anyway they are all coming over to my place for dinner...Should be fun.. I need fun..

So there is my update...broken...sad...lonely
...Yet I know the enemy wants to keep me down and
after I cry and cry and get it all out I am coming after him in a big way...Which reminds me to right now put on my worship and praise music and blast it and sing and cry and thank God how Awesome He is! Love is my weapon of Mass destruction...!!!! BAM!!!
Not only that I have my SWORD the Word that will cut his head off...His word I now call the Guide Book Of the Supernatural! So off to war right now cry and Thank God that He has got my back and I will have victory!!!

I love you dear Spark Friends...I could not get through my lonely days without your loving words speaking encouragement and love into my life...You are my life line!

Thank you dear sisters...oh and Lou ...you guys mean the world to me!!!!!!!!!

I love you today this gray Friday....
Love Nan