Friday, July 08, 2011
Ok so I know I am not great at sticking with this eat right and exercise thing. I can do great with it for a few days....maybe even a week or two, but then I am right back into my old habits of eating whatever I want and finding every excuse imaginable not to exercise. But I have now realized something crucial about myself...TOSTITOS OWN ME. For real, I am addicted to a stupid tortilla chip. I FREAKIN LOVE THEM!
Ok, so I have been doing better with the exercise thing. I have a goal, I want to run my first 5K on my birthday: 9/11/11 here in St. Louis. So I have been loosely following the Couch Potato to 5K program, doing my own thing with it, for about 5 weeks now. I faithfully get out there every other day and have really noticed an improvement in my running stamina. Now keep in mind that my old motto on running was: "I don't run unless somebody is chasing me", so to run voluntarily is a big deal for me. And I am getting kinda good at it. BUT.....I cannot break my addiction to TOSTITOS.
Every single freakin night I give in to my cravings for Tostitos chips and salsa. I absolutely love it. I think about them during the day (sad...I know), I make myself promises that I have no intention of keeping (ok, I will only eat them once a week, just so as not to deprive myself) or bargain with myself: I will only eat one serving, in a bowl, not out of the bag....or: If I run extra tonight then I will allow myself to eat two servings...yada yada yada...
But then here comes 9:30pm and the Tostitos are calling out to me from the pantry, then the salsa joins in...calling my name...and my weak self gives in without a fight. Do you think I take the time to get out a bowl and count out one serving? HA! All previous promises to myself and bargains I made with myself are forgotten...until I emerge from my Tostitos high and see myself on the couch with the almost empty bag and crumbs scattered around me. And you know what is the worst part? Am I ashamed? No...........I am SATISFIED!!!!!!!!!!!! Sad but true.
Ok so I know what you are thinking....so just don't buy them. Tried it. Resisted buying them at the grocery store during my weekly shopping trip. Did it work? NO....I just go to the gas station and buy them @ 9:45pm and pay triple price. So yes....I am well and truly owned by a darn tortilla chip.