Thursday, July 07, 2011
I am a new person. The old me has left and is gone for good. The obese girl that used to sit in front of the TV and eat chips and dip is gone. Now I am an average weight woman who goes for a run every morning. I feel totally different. I used to be so uncomfortable in my body. I hated myself. Now I am proud of the way I look and feel. I have energy to do things I would have never attempted a few years ago.
The down side is I do look a lot older than I used to. I have a lot of excess skin and my face is wrinkled. I can't afford plastic surgery, so I guess this is the way I am gonna look. It bothers my husband more than it does me.
I have worked so hard to get where I am. I am not willing to give it up! I am very afraid of gaining my weight back. I have lost and gained so many times before. This is the most I have ever lost and I will never go back where I was!! Running seems to be the key to my success in weight loss. I worry about getting injured and having to stop running...what will happen then? I want to be that old lady who walks to the grocery store and is successfully independent for a very long time!!!