Wednesday, July 06, 2011
I have experienced some tough times lately, tougher than I really ever thought possible (even though I'm sure they could be tougher). My husband is still injured and out of work and the BWC has denied our claim for benefits again. Our lawyer is appealing again but to be honest with you, I'm starting to lose heart. I'm afraid that we won't be able to provide for our children. I don't want to leave the kids with my husband while I go to work, but I'm getting desperate. I don't want to lose our home. So I thought that if there is one thing that would make me happier and make me feel more in control of my life... ONE THING- it would be to get to a healthy weight. So why don't I? Food deceives me. Woos me, tells me everything will be ok. Just one more bite will make it all go away. What lies food tells me. I go to bed loathing myself at night. How is that worth it? It isn't.
Yesterday was a good day. Today can be good too. It's starting out pretty well (food wise). I need to make this change or I will lose myself forever. I know I can do it. If you pray, please pray for my little family. Thanks for reading.