Saturday, July 02, 2011
I looked at my calendar the other day and couldn't believe that July is already upon us! I joined SP in the middle of February and a lot has changed in me since then.
When I first logged on, I was kind of lost. I was putting myself last in EVERYTHING. My goal in life is to be a great mom, by creating the best memories possible for my babies and showing them how special they are, and to be a great wife, by making my husband feel like the man that I see him as (which is the best man ever created-the one made for me); supporting him in all his life goals and helping him be the best that he can be. I was succeeding in all of that, but I was leaving ME, and all of my wants and dreams behind.
Joining this site helped me to put myself into a new perspective. I started to see myself of worthy of all of my dreams and I started to work towards them. I've had my ups and downs in all of this, but I'm coming through better for them on the other side.
A couple of months ago, I was feeling stronger, but I was getting sick. I went to the doctor and they scheduled a colonoscopy for me. They biopsied my colon and I was so afraid during all of this. I kind of just let go, I let other things get in the way again, and while I was following the plan that the doctor had laid out for me, I was letting my exercise go, and falling farther down my own list of priorites. (This is the worst slip backwards for me). Anyway, I went back to the doctor on Monday, and got great news and a clear cut plan to follow to keep me feeling great.
I decided to do everything differently. I'm going to attack my goals from a new angle. I just want to kill 10 pounds at a time (the big goal is messing with my head). I changed my ticker to reflect my new way of thinking so that it can keep me going in the right direction. Everytime I it the small goal, I'll change it again. I'm going to take it one day at a time and put ME back on the list.
The support that I've found here has really helped me to keep coming back even when I fall down, so I'll be continuing to seek it, so get ready Spark Friends!
I feel great today and hope that everyone else does too. Have a great Spark filled weekend!