Saturday, July 02, 2011
I had a tough night and was awake off and on, but I fell asleep this morning and managed to finally get my 6 hours in. I work for that each day, anyway. When I opened up my computer, I had many, many, many emails about comments on my Spark Page. I get them from time to time, but never like that--so I knew something was up. I opened the first one and found out that I was MOD. Thank you all, I am humbled. It will take a while to respond, but I will try to get that done.
I appreciate the support more than you know. There are days that it feels as if I have scratched my way up to a real life. It takes one baby step at a time for some of us. I am getting to the place I want to be and my most recent "aha" moment is that it takes growth in every area. I have had to learn to take care of myself and speak up for my health and decent treatment from everyone. I had to learn that I deserve to be treated right before I could do anything. That doesn't seem like it should be tricky, but for me--it has taken a long time and many setbacks before I finally "got it." I am worthy and deserve to be treated well. That is true for each of you as well--and I believe that is the real starting point of becoming healthy, inside and out.
Today is a special day for a number of reasons. I have lunch with my best friend today. We make a date each month so that this important time we share doesn't get pushed aside. I am going to the pool and then bowling with my kids. Bowling--really, me!! I went with Micah yesterday and using an 8 pound "little kids" ball, I bowled 114. I wouldn't have guessed I could do that a year ago!! After that, I am going grocery shopping for our family weekend with my husband, two of my sons, and Mitchell's girlfriend. She and I had a long phone call last night as I told her all of the honest things I feel about her. She is a wonderful girl and I thought it was important to tell her that. I also wanted to let her know that if I messed up and forgot to ask her opinion or if I assumed that she was joining us on a family event, it was simply and oversight because I think the world of her. It seemed to have touched her--but I wanted to make her feel welcome as she settles down here, away from her family and childhood friends. I am thinking that might be a bit difficult.
Anyway, I wanted to thank you all before I head out on a busy day. You are all awesome and I will be checking in later.
Life is good.