I managed to calm myself down over the weekend, especially in light of most everyone's positive support, here and elsewhere, and had a pretty good week this week in terms of body image and positive thinking. It helped that I was so busy with work that I didn't really have time to be thinking about this. It also helped that I got my hair cut, which I had been wanting to do for about a month now. Glad I did, too, because my stylist is also expecting and yesterday was her last day at the salon. I got in just under the wire!
I am thankful for all of you that posted sympathetic comments, positive encouragement and in general were understanding and supportive of my issues in the past week. This is why I love SP so much - I know I have great people behind me every step of the way, reminding me I can get back up and keep going anytime.
I also appreciate that everyone's journey through this is different, and really applaud the level of acceptance and support despite the differences. We are such complex beings - there is no one right way to do pregnancy, or weight loss, or life for that matter. Everyone makes their own way and whether I regret something down the line or not, this is forming part of who that future person will be. I always tell my patients (and myself), I wouldn't be where I am today if not for the choices, both positive and negative, that I made in the past. I'm not "missing out" on anything during this pregnancy journey just because I happen to be having difficulty with weight gain. I am still joyful about the arrival of my child, I am still in awe of the awesomeness of the human body and what it can do - I am also a thinking, conscious, emotional person that has trouble with not feeling my best. According to Ron Weasley from "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince," one person can't feel all that at the same time, they'd explode!
Well, I haven't exploded yet, though I have wanted to at times. It just makes me that much more prepared for all the crazy things parenting will throw at me down the line, right? I just wanted to thank you for your comments and support one more time. I appreciate it.
Anyway, I hope you all have plans for a fabulous weekend. If you're in the USA, enjoy your 4th of July holiday!