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I HATE CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Friday, July 01, 2011


Woofie and my friend Rachel....

Why Jesus why????
I lost my beloved love of my life to cancer, my Sugar Bear,..,,,, It sucks!
I just had a mega chunk of flesh cut out of my body pre= cancer......
Now today, Thursday, after spending my time, money and love praying for people, I go home and take my beloved Woofie to the vet only to find out he had liver cancer....
choices...
take him home so he can starve to death or bleed to death and suffer....
Do surgery which he will probably NOT survive...
Or put him down.....
I look at him we have this eye to eye heart to heart talk....he understands he is dying...
I tell him he is going to be with Jesus and Joel very soon and soon I will join both of them in heaven...
I go to the store and load up on dog toys, treats, food and wine, and cookies...
doggie treats for my 5 year old Bunny who will grieve the loss of Woofie....
Wine and Cookies for my loss of my best freind..who sat with me when my sister was killed... sat with me when my mom passed...and who sat with me when Joel passed away....
GOD are you listening!!! SEND WOOFIE TO HEAVEN WITH JOEL....HEAR MY PRAYERS!

God I am so distraught,,,,

He was the best dog ever....10 years is too short...
On my profile is Joel and Woofie...Oh how my heart aches for them both...it is really toooooo much for me...

Please keep me in your prayers....I am so so so lost now....it is waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much!

I need prayers....
Love
Nan
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COOKNKEL 7/24/2011 4:27PM

    most heart felt blog...I lived in fear that I would get breast cancer because all my relatives (Gram and her sibs, pap and sibs, and aunt) died of cancer. Then in Y2K, I was delivered from that fear by the saving power of Jesus Christ. I was free to marry, and have kids...but the lie of the enemy sneaks back in and I'm afraid again...until I take thoughts captive. ANd PRAY. The hurts are so real for your loses and the anger--I'm thinking cancer is of the enemy for sure and one of the horrible things of this world....healing will come through Jesus, but in the mean time- IT SUCKS!

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SLIMMERJESSE 7/9/2011 9:40AM

    I understand your pain as I've lost 10 friends and family members over the past 4 years - several to cancer. It IS too much, and has taken me a long time to even begin to feel semi-human again. And I've been through the tough situation of whether to put a dear pet down. In the end, I knew that prolonging his life would only cause him more pain. So I had to let go. Wishing you the best. Big hug.

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 7/9/2011 9:36AM

    You have my prayers.

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GRAMMACATHY 7/3/2011 4:18PM

    Nan, I am also praying for you and will light a candle on our LALO candle site. My Sara who looked like your Woofie also raised my kids and helped me grieve Loved Ones. Dogs are every bit a member of the family, but many people do not understand. In fact I think dogs are Fur Angels sent to us to teach us kindness and compassion. I would like to think that my Sara will help your Woofie get settled into his next adventure with Joel in Heaven.
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WARMSPRINGDAY 7/3/2011 6:51AM

    emoticon Know that I care and am praying for you.

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DIANNEMT 7/2/2011 11:23AM

    I am so sorry for the loss of your dog/family member. I don't know you but I do know how much we depend on our pets! I know your dog has joined your loved ones in heaven. Hold on--you will be with them someday--but hopefully not too soon! You do have lots of living to do yet!! emoticon emoticon

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INDIANOAKS 7/1/2011 11:15PM

    Noticed a SparkFriend of mine had commented on your blog so came over to read it... WOW I don't even KNOW what to say...there are NO words...

Please just know you'll be in the hearts and prayers of many, many people -- even people like myself that don't even know you!!

Take care and hang in there....

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SVELTEWARRIOR 7/1/2011 10:53PM

    I am so sorry!!!!! I will say a prayer for you.

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GRANDMAMAOF3 7/1/2011 8:21PM

    I AM SO SORRY FOR THE SUFFERING YOU ARE HAVIING TO BEAR RIGHT NOW. I WILL BE SENDING PRAYERS AND BLESSINGS TO YOU.

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THEPANG 7/1/2011 5:20PM

    I hate cancer too!! It is very sneaky popping up when you least expect it.

Very sorry for your lost. It is something only time will dim. It is doubly hard because you had to make the decision.

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EWEINHISPASTURE 7/1/2011 5:14PM

    So sorry. I am praying for your peace and comfort right now emoticon and prayers emoticon

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IAMWINNING 7/1/2011 5:08PM

    Nan, my heart goes out to you, and my prayers for you to the Lord. God loves all His creatures, so know that He loves Woofie, too. I pray for God to comfort you.

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CRYSTALCHALICE 7/1/2011 4:54PM

    I am so, so sorry, I hurt for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers, as are Woofie and Joel, who are together once more and ecstatically happy.
Crystal
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MRE1956 7/1/2011 3:45PM

    Words fail me right now - I looked at some of your pics of Woofie - such a sweetie (schnauzers are so cool!)......I hate cancer, too - it's taken so many folk close to me - it truly, TRULY s**ks.....

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BIGDAD1211 7/1/2011 3:34PM

    I am so sorry. Sending prayers for your comfort and peace.
In Jesus Name
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MISSM66 7/1/2011 3:28PM

    I will keep you in my prayers,take care emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ELISADENK 7/1/2011 3:22PM

    Yeah....

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-DYET- 7/1/2011 3:21PM

    I will add you to my prayers. I am so sorry!

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 7/1/2011 3:20PM

    You are in my thoughts and prayers, Nan. May God bring you the comfort and peace necessary as you go through this difficult time. I know that your furbabies will be waiting for you at The Rainbow Bridge.

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TEALADY0531 7/1/2011 3:20PM

    I'm so very sorry! Praying for you as you grieve.... emoticon emoticon
Midgie

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YATMAMA 7/1/2011 3:12PM

    Oh, Nan. *HUGS* I love you.

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MINDYJ1 7/1/2011 2:22PM

    I am so very sorry for all that you have been through. emoticon emoticon

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DESTRUCTCUPCAKE 7/1/2011 12:06PM

    I am truly sorry for all your losses. What you have endured is not fair or just, but just is. My thoughts are with you.

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F8CONE8 7/1/2011 11:29AM

    You have had so much to bear. I do believe that Woofie and Joel will be waiting in heaven. My prayers go out to you.

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JANLEH 7/1/2011 10:28AM

    I'm so incredibly sorry. Woofie will be in Heaven with your Joel. I truly believe that. Sending you prayers of comfort and peace.



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MAKULEWAHINE 7/1/2011 9:48AM

    Nan, I am so sorry for your losses. My heart and prayers go out to you. Please God, keep Nan strong and sweeten her life to help her through this difficult period.

Take care.

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I.M.MAGIC 7/1/2011 9:33AM

    emoticon I have had to perform the same service for a number of sweet creatures who shared my life over the years...

We suspected that my service dog had developed cancer and were planning on taking him to the vet after this payday... which is Sunday... and Wednesday night last week,he was gone-- an apparent heart attack. Just that fast.

Horrible, and very sad.

We took him to the Emergency Animal Hospital on Durango St in Tacoma, and had to borrow to have his body cremated. The facility who does it for them scatters the ashes on Mt. Rainier... a fitting resting spot...

It's a hard decision to ease a beloved family member's passage into the light in such a way... at least the suffering is over, and there is someone waiting on the other side who loves him too...

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LINDYPAINTS 7/1/2011 9:31AM

    my heart breaks for you. There are no words to make your pain lighter but I will pray for you.
xx

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MAZZYR 7/1/2011 5:03AM

    Tears. Oh Nan, I'm so sorry you're in pain. I'm sending loving thoughts your way.

Xoxo,
Mazzy

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PICKLEDGINGER2 7/1/2011 2:05AM

  My heartfelt prayers for you.

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