My declaration of independence will be reminding myself where I am now compared to where I was.
Pre-Pregnancy at approximately 240 pounds (I am 5'7"):
Me post-pregnancy at approximately 265-270 pounds (August 2009):
Not my most recent picture, but pretty close to how I look right now (maybe a little more jiggly in my tummy now) at 160:
My weight when I first started my journey in 2009: 286 pounds
My weight when I started this challenge: 168.8
Lowest weight: 158 (I refuse to count the 152 I saw when I was sick).
This time 2 years ago I could not walk more than 30 feet without being seriously short of breath.
Now, I have run numerous races including the 5K, 7K, 8K, 10K, and half marathon. I love running, and do plan on running another half marathon in the fall, and maybe a full marathon a year from then.
This time 2 years ago I was in a size 24.
Now, I am still comfortably in a size 10 (I was at 8 for a while).
This time 2 years ago I was scared about how much weight I had to lose.
Now, I am finally freeing myself of the fear of weight that I have never lost before, at least that I recall (my lowest weight I remember seeing as a teen was 165).
This time 2 years ago I hated the idea of going to the gym.
Now, I miss the gym if I skip a day. I have my own little family there! Shout outs to Julie, Shawn, Mare, Barb, Cindy, Noel, Boop, Steve, Linda, Kerri, and so many others! You notice when I am gone, and that sure makes me feel loved!!
This time 2 years ago food was more important than me.
Now, I still find myself reminding myself that it is not, that it is fuel, but I am more successful now than I ever was before!
This time 2 years ago I was reluctant to let go of my last "crutch" that I used to deal with stress - comfort/emotional eating. Before, I had other addictions that sufficed including smoking and gambling. I have not smoked since October 2, 2006. I have not gambled since February 26, 2004.
Now, I know there are healthier ways to deal with stress, namely running ;o}
My journey has been a long one, folks, but it will be ongoing for the rest of my life. It doesn't stop beause you lose all the weight. That's when the fun starts ;o} Of course, I haven't lost all my weight. I have 10-20 pounds to go, maybe even 30. Does that scare me anymore? No, because I just need to believe in myself, and to become independent of my food addiction.
I am a warrior.