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Not starting over, just changing my game plan.....

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Well I havenít weighed myself in quite awhile.....until today. I KNEW Iíd gained quite a bit of weight back but wasnít ready to acknowledge the reality of how much until this morning. You know what? The sky didnít fall and the world didnít end. Itís a number. Itís a unit of measurement. Although I am not HAPPY about it, I can accept it. Last November I was at my goal weight--actually LOWER than my goal weight. Now itís the end of June and Iím up over 20 pounds. So what do I feel and think? I think Iím still Billie. I still think I look OK (not spectacular but ok) and I think I need to shift the focus (not just with words but with true beliefs) to being healthy and FEELING better in this body. I get so hung up on numbers--numbers on the scale, numbers on the clothes size...But the bottom line is that I FEEL better, more comfortable when Iím eating healthy, drinking less and exercising more. The result of that is that I lose weight but the driving force has got to be to feel better because clearly just trying to lose weight to get to a certain number is not working for me in the long run. Feeling better is immediate. I can do that today and tomorrow too. Now if I could just stick that thought in my brain when the vodka and the pasta come calling.........

Member Comments About This Blog Post:

    I fessed up and re-set my ticker too... and the past few days I have been hiding and almost trying to gorge myself of everything in sight (darn hormones and loneliness of emotional eating). The dating world is driving me crazy!!

Nice to see how you are taking this all in stride and helps me to know I can do the same... Cheers to a great month!

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HIPPICHICK1 6/30/2011 10:44AM

    Welcome home! Remember that taking baby steps are better than taking no steps at all.

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OLLYBIRD 6/29/2011 10:54PM

    The fact that you are here and ready to get back to work speaks volumes. Baby steps toward your progress and you will get there again!

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MEADSBAY 6/29/2011 8:48PM

    I did a blog recently about this subject.
My problem is the summer clothes I put away last fall do not fit me now and I will NOT buy bigger clothes.
Plus my legs look pretty bad.

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HOPEFULANGE 6/29/2011 5:51PM

    I love this attitude - thanks for the reminder! emoticon

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    Ah maintainance. What we should have found out first. we never can eat as much or as you and I know, you gain back some of the weight. I look "OK" as well, but I know we can do better. emoticon

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DESERTFLAME 6/29/2011 5:06PM

    Woohooo, you had the courage to step on the scale and face the outcome emoticon I like the way you are thinking re: focussing on the healthy part and feeling better - I am working on that too. I'll cheer you on as you wrestle with the pasta and vodka too emoticon

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NEVRA26 6/29/2011 3:00PM

    I know you can get back on track! Feeling better is the most important thing! The weight loss and fitness will come along with the good choices you make. I'll be here anytime you need support/motivation! emoticon emoticon

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