Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Overall, I am a very positive person that always has a smile :) Lately, I have found myself struggling with little things like with leaving an upbeat status. I believe that Spark is place for positivity and really do not want to bring ppl down with my feelings like Iím falling apart. But, I am who I am and cannot fake or force perkiness and happiness. People that I deal with on a daily basis can read me right away. I have heard ďare you sure youíre Ok?Ē many times this past week. So, I donít have a poker face. People know that I am not myself and want to know whatís up. My response here at work is mostly, ďyes, Iím okĒ. They know itís a lie, but, respect my privacy enough to keep moving.
As many of my sparky friends know, I was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. Funny enough, the cancer diagnosis is not what has me so down this week. Iím having other medical problems (tmi for here) and it is preventing me from exercising or really doing much of anything :( My surgery is scheduled for next week and this was suppose to be my week to live it up, get lots of exercise, etc in and I canít. I just want to feel like myselfÖall SPARKly again :)
The support of all my spark friends really means more than I can ever express. Many moments, when Iím feeling particularly down, someone will send me some random, funny or caring goodie or just a quick message to let me know you care. So... just wanted to thank you all for your prayers, concern and continued support. Means the world to me :)