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Thank you sparkfriends!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Overall, I am a very positive person that always has a smile :) Lately, I have found myself struggling with little things like with leaving an upbeat status. I believe that Spark is place for positivity and really do not want to bring ppl down with my feelings like Iím falling apart. But, I am who I am and cannot fake or force perkiness and happiness. People that I deal with on a daily basis can read me right away. I have heard ďare you sure youíre Ok?Ē many times this past week. So, I donít have a poker face. People know that I am not myself and want to know whatís up. My response here at work is mostly, ďyes, Iím okĒ. They know itís a lie, but, respect my privacy enough to keep moving.

As many of my sparky friends know, I was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. Funny enough, the cancer diagnosis is not what has me so down this week. Iím having other medical problems (tmi for here) and it is preventing me from exercising or really doing much of anything :( My surgery is scheduled for next week and this was suppose to be my week to live it up, get lots of exercise, etc in and I canít. I just want to feel like myselfÖall SPARKly again :)

The support of all my spark friends really means more than I can ever express. Many moments, when Iím feeling particularly down, someone will send me some random, funny or caring goodie or just a quick message to let me know you care. So... just wanted to thank you all for your prayers, concern and continued support. Means the world to me :)

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*~*MICHELLE*~* 9/20/2011 11:33AM


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GREYPARK 7/25/2011 4:59PM

    I am sorry to hear of your recent medical problems. I had no idea. I wish you all the best in your progress through this difficult time. I have no doubt that you will come out smiling on the other side of this ordeal. You are such a kind heart.
I know that you are aware of this, but it is worth repeating so here goes : ).....The way we handle ourselves through difficult times is what makes us the wonderful people we turn out to be in life. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JASCAT0507 7/8/2011 6:27AM

    You are an inspiration to me. You have encouraged me through my adventure here on Sparkpeople and made me feel really good about my progress. There were times when I would see your encouragement and it kept me going. I love your SPARKly attitude and look forward to it's return. I really hope you get to feeling better! emoticon

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GOING-STRONG 7/5/2011 11:17AM

    Life does have a way of tossing lemons at us when we least expect it... but now time to make some lemonade! You are strong and will be able to beat this. I was diagnosed with breast cancer at age 35 and thought it meant my life was over... but here I am 20 years later better than ever. I finally got around to it and had breast constructive surgery two years ago and now I have the perkiest boobs of any 55 year old I know lol. Sending hugs your way... you will be back in fighting form in no time at all.

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TEENY_BIKINI 7/1/2011 12:01AM


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SEEHOLZ 6/30/2011 8:49PM

    I see I'm back from vacation right in time to read this blog! I had no idea about your diagnosis nor your other issues, but in my opinion, you are exactly what Sparks is about- real people dealing with real situations the best way possible!

Even if I'm not able to get on all the time or catch up right away, I love to come to your page and just read your status or say hi- you really have exactly that positive attraction!

I really, really wish you the best- try to take it minute by minute or second by second. Not being able to get those exercise endorphins makes me feel crappy too. I think by trying to just focus on now, it makes dealing with whatever brings us down a lot easier.

This is your blog- your page and space to express any and all feelings without any worry, so let yourself feel and share if you want and don't share if you don't. Be you!


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CHICKENCHASER78 6/30/2011 3:10PM


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CLEE2830 6/30/2011 9:49AM

    Sending emoticon your way!

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SUSANSCH 6/30/2011 9:18AM

    Things aren't always sunny, but finding something to be thankful for always helps. Don't forget to breathe!

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SERV4LIFE 6/30/2011 8:49AM


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ALASKAPSYCH 6/29/2011 10:36PM

    Let us help you stay strong! We are here for you!


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GERRYB54 6/29/2011 9:46PM

    your sunshine will return soon, you'll see! Good luck with everything coming your way, you will always be a winner!

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    sending prayers, hugs and support to a fellow spark sister. My sister has brest cancer and is remission so I have been close to your situation.

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TEENY_BIKINI 6/29/2011 7:42PM


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YICHE12 6/29/2011 12:50PM

    We're here for you my dear. Keep the positive attitude going. emoticon emoticon

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AFTERMYKIDS 6/29/2011 12:39PM

    emoticon and emoticon always Karen!

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MIMIKK7 6/29/2011 12:39PM

    Sending positive energy, prayers, and lots of emoticon your way!
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SUNSHINE667 6/29/2011 12:27PM

    Prayers and happy thoughts sent your way!!! emoticon

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JELLI-LEAN 6/29/2011 11:22AM

    emoticon and emoticon

Take one day at a time!

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SUECHRIS50 6/29/2011 11:20AM

    Im sorry to hear you have breast cancer honey but on the up side you caught it!My aunt just had a mastectomy on the 23rd!I know you must be scared,but,your positive attitude is awesome and a good place to be.You are in my prayers and hopes you will be just fine!!!! emoticon emoticon

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FROGGERHKC 6/29/2011 10:37AM

    Lots of emoticon and support for you, sorry to hear you are going through so much right now!

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MISS_VIV 6/29/2011 10:26AM

    SPECIAL THOUGHTS TO YOU during this time of crisis. YOU ARE A SURVIVOR and you can do it. (Like the millions before and the millions that follow that take the challenge and beat that dreaded disease) Fight like the super gal that you are and you will win...........

Big hugs

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LINJO66 6/29/2011 10:21AM

Sending good "vibes" to you.

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SHANNJ77 6/29/2011 10:15AM

    emoticon Many positive thoughts and prayers for you!! emoticon

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PEACHBUNN 6/29/2011 10:14AM

  May you be healed by the power of prayer and positive thought. I sent a special request on your behalf. Bless you.


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JECKIE 6/29/2011 10:08AM


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ONEWAYSTREET 6/29/2011 9:35AM

  Thinking of you.. but you know that...
If the power of positive thought has a bearing on making you well... then you are in with a brilliant chance...
Coz only good thoughts are being sent your way...
Take good care of youÖ.
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LDY_ALI_79 6/29/2011 8:41AM

    emoticon I'm sure this is all overwhelming, I pray your smile & good health return to you soon! Stay strong and faithful my friend!

Take care~
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BARBEQUESUE 6/29/2011 8:41AM

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Hoping that the today finds you feeling better than yesterday and that tomorrow is better than today.
Hang in there...You are in my prayers.
With Love and Hugs!

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FLYING2007 6/29/2011 8:19AM

    I am thinking of you. You do what you need to do for yourself and don't worry about anybody else. This is your time to heal and come back even stronger.

Best of luck with your issues.

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PIP103 6/29/2011 8:03AM

    So sorry to hear you are going through something so scary. Your positive attitude and amazing health accomplishments will be what gets you through this (along with family, friends and sparkfriends). Sending you lots of hugs, strength and positive thoughts. You are amazing and will be 'sparkly' again in no time. Take care of yourself emoticon

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TEENY_BIKINI 6/29/2011 7:48AM

    You are one awesome, amazing woman.

Feel free to be whoever you choose to be. I don't know anyone who is up all the time - that seems like a lot to ask from any human being.

I plan to stop by every day to check on you - I hope that's okay. I just want to show my support to my dear, sweet friend :)


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LEEPFROG95 6/29/2011 5:51AM

    Karen, you are a strong are a woman of great power....... your love and your kind heart...

you are in my thoughts and prayers each and every day....

being down is how you recharge and take time...

love ya mic
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DEBRITA01 6/28/2011 8:48PM

    You are always my Sunshine...but even the sun can't shine every day...sometimes clouds get in the way. Concentrate on yourself, be selfish for a change, and push those clouds outta your way, Girl! Let yourself have your feelings, good or bad...and keep your fighting spirit. The Big C has nothing on can beat it and we are all here to help you. Lean on your friends when you need to...that's what we're here for.

I love your sister's *It is was it is* shirt. That is my motto, too. So yes, Jo, wear that long-sleeved t-shirt on Tuesday...and, would you give your sister a big hug for me, please? Thanks.

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SUCCESS44 6/28/2011 8:01PM

    I am sorry about your diagnosis, and I will be praying for a successful surgery for you. It is great that you feel comfortable enough to share how you feel on SP. It is great that you are so committed that your expectation to exercise this week and inability to do so is disappointing. You are awesome! : )

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NOTHIN2IT 6/28/2011 6:56PM

    I'm so sorry for everything you are having to deal with right now. You don't have to be positive for us. Right now we will be positive for you! You have helped me on so many days when I was feeling down and I read some cheerful message you wrote and it made me feel so much better. Now let us pay you back for all of your sweet comments and cheerful attitute! You don't have to hide what you are feeling. I just want you to be able to be honest about it. :)
I am here for you if you want to vent or cry on a shoulder. And, just remember this....this will pass and things WILL get better! You will be back to your normal sweet self before you know it! Hang in there honey! emoticon

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TURNINGJ 6/28/2011 6:44PM

    My incredible sister.... you are so strong and so positive and just know that your optimism and fighting spirit will get you over this bump in the road without a hitch. You are always so great at cheering others up (usually me!) and so now let all your sparkly friends cheer for YOU!

I love you so much!! xoxox Tuesday will be a distant memory by the end of the summer and you'll be back to your crazy double workout sessions!

There are so many things we can't figure out why or why us... but we have faith and know that someone has a greater plan for us... and for some reason this was meant to be.

I'm your biggest cheerleader... sending you lots of hugs. (stop crying!)
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p.s. Will I look silly wearing my long-sleeved
"It is What it Is" t-shirt on Tuesday??

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LOPEYP 6/28/2011 3:38PM

    Keeping lots of good thoughts for you, my friend. I know that you'll come through this well. You are so sweet-you deserve only the best. emoticon

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BJWESTON70 6/28/2011 3:18PM

    Karen - you'll be back to your "Sparkly" self in no time so take this time to take care of yourself.

I'll be thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Lots of love and emoticon

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NITA-BERRY 6/28/2011 2:24PM

    How about another pedicure "together". Works for me.

As always, you're in my thoughts and prayers.
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1BEARWIFE 6/28/2011 1:57PM

    Well, THIS is a bit of hard cheese, isn't it!! I have no doubt you are saddened due to your medical conditions. One cannot be "UP!!!!!" all the time, and you are not responsible to make sure anyone else is happy, either. You take your time, do it your way, and keep us informed as to how we can help you.

You certainly have my daily prayers,

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GOODBYEXL 6/28/2011 12:59PM

    just give it time. If you want to be SPARKly, you will.

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IMAGINE_IT 6/28/2011 12:54PM

    Karen lots of Hugs..good Thoughts and Prayers are heading your way from me to you..on a daily have been there for me all along throughout my BC fight...and you know how sad and shocked I was when I found out you too had been diagnosed...but we are fighters and I know in my heart that you can beat this! You know im here for you..anytime! Love you my friend..Hugs....

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JSPIN74 6/28/2011 12:49PM

    You are such a wonderful bright spot in the community...the outpouring of thoughts & cheer comes to you for good reason. I'm thinking of you (sending many many good restful/peaceful vibes your way).

I'm sure you will be feeling more your regular self soon.
Spoil yourself some if you can.... ? a nice bubble bath, some reading, mani/pedi...whatever helps you. XO

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MSPEACHYJONES 6/28/2011 12:10PM

    Ah Luv I had no idea! I hope you are feeling OK and know that it is alright to feel overwhelmed sometimes especially when you have so much to deal with. The mind-bodyandsoul need time to process the heavy matters you are facing lethary is often the minds way of slowing the body to dwell on things and sometimes isolate to help you catch up and re-centre yourself. You are working through a very difficult time so don't ever for a second feel bad that it is tough or force yourself to put on a mask, because as you say those who love you will see straight through anyhow. But most of all as new-caz said vent here as much as you can because we are honoured to be given the opportunity to help you in any tiny way.

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NEW-CAZ 6/28/2011 11:42AM

    Karen hun you mean the world to us- you are so supportive of so many on SP!
We know you have a lot to contend with right now and this is the ideal place to vent......better out than in.
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Take care Karen, rest and be good to yourself. Once next week is over some of the worry and tension will ease.
I'll be thinking of you often
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ROSIE777 6/28/2011 11:36AM

    You are the best sweet friend emoticon

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