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Been there, Done that, Got the T-shirt and it's too small

Monday, June 27, 2011

On June 20 I finally got the nerve to weigh..
. the number is . . .280
A binge a day for 3 months
has meant a 30 pound weight gain for me,
and most of my T-shirts are getting too snug, and my slacks are uncomfortably tight.
I will NOT be buying larger clothes.
I'm not sitting here all enthused about GETTING STARTED,
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I just know I have to get control of myself and be an adult
and do what I can each day to improve my health.
Depression, medications, body aches are just excuses.
The first thing I did to help myself was to start drinking extra water
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and stop whining and making excuses.
Last month I cut my own hair the way I wanted,
and I really like it.
This week I'm tossing out the clutter in my house
and facing the challenges I've been avoiding.
I'm grateful for all my SP friends who have kept supporting me
even when I was non-responsive.
Thank you.
I'm just going to get out of this hole, and stop setting unachievable goals.
No more planning a marathon,
no more deadlines for a big weight loss.
I'm just going get some exercise every day. . . and have some faith in myself.
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  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

TUBLADY 6/28/2011 10:24PM

    I have missed the Move it Marsha.
You always supported me when I first started here on Spark.
Believe me, there were times it was rough going.
I remember when you could do an exercise I couldn't do.
I worked on doing that exercise until I could do it.
I figured if you could do it, so could I.
I am really glad you are posting again and in the for the long haul. No matter how long.
We didn't get in our condition over night and it takes just as long, really longer to undo what we have done to ourselves.
But each step of the way is and accomplishment. A move in the right direction.
You have a whole team here on Spark behind you all the way.
I always say we are on the same road. It's just at different speeds. And some people take a few detours. But the destination is the same.
We all want to be more healthy and fit. We want to feel good about ourselves.
And each and everyone of us can make that happen. It's just one day at a time.
So go for it will make it happen.
Stay positive,
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TORTILLAFLATS 6/28/2011 1:03AM

    Marsha, your title speaks volumes for all of us at one time or another. I am glad you are back. You can do it and we can do it with you.

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IOWAGRAMMA 6/27/2011 7:16PM

    Good luck on your lifestyle changes, and I hear everything you're saying. It is a constant struggle. Beyond that, as you say, faith in ourselves and attention to US is what we need. I'm a member of the Over 60+++ Team and look forward to getting to know you. Jeannie

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SPEEDY143 6/27/2011 4:47PM

    Love your blog title emoticon I know each one of us could be saying the same thing and if we haven't already then we could be if we don't at least use the scale weekly for a "gut" check. emoticon

I'm so happy to see YOU posting again Marsha... that's a goal in it self emoticon yep, a first step in never quitting... extra water, another good choice and I can promise you that if you eat healthy one day... the next day will be easier. Think of each day as a single challenge... don't worry about yesterday or tomorrow. Today.. it's all we have. emoticon

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All your SparkFriends emoticon are here to emoticon "cheer" you on sweetie!!!! We re in this together emoticon

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KARRYB1 6/27/2011 2:52PM

    emoticon Go Marsh , Go Marsha,Go Go Go!!!! emoticon

Glad your back and ready to emoticon Kick butt!

Don't look back only forward.

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MADKAPKID 6/27/2011 1:01PM

    Marsha, I am HAPPY DANCING....Just seeing you post a blog makes me so happy. I have missed you! I really do understand just what you are saying. YOU really are NOT alone. My isn't easy, but I do believe in you. AND, I know YOU CAN do this!

BABY STEPS...SMALL ....STEADY....and DOABLE. THAT is a good goal.

Have a joy filled day....Karen emoticon

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JILL313 6/27/2011 11:24AM

    I am so happy you're back Marsha as I've missed you so much. Believe me you're not alone in your WL struggles as I've gained some pounds myself. We all know what to do to lose the weight but it's the doing that we don't always do. Take one day at a time and set small small new goals such as drinking more water, exercising for 10-15 minutes a day, etc. We're in this together and we can win this fight. . .I'm also on anti-depressant RX that doesn't help at all in losing the weight but I know it's not impossible. I do feel better when I eat healthy and exercise even if it's not for a very long time. Just keep doing the best you can do and don't ever quit on yourself. Let's get Healthy!!



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JUSFOLK 6/27/2011 11:16AM

    Being accountable is a good step in the right direction. We're rooting for you! (That's right, Sparkpals, pump those arms... burns lots of calories!)

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LJCANNON 6/27/2011 11:03AM

    emoticon You have made the First, Hardest Two Steps: Recognizing The Problem & Making A Change.
emoticon You CAN move forward, with all your SparkFriends walking beside you (or behind you, in case you need an occasional PUSH!!)

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4DOGNIGHT 6/27/2011 10:49AM

    We've all been there! The good thing is that you are back and ready to return. Why hasn't someone done a study on why we diet, why we lose so slowly, give up and then binge and regain? This happens and it is real! I just went through the same thing eating whatever I wanted and gaining about 12 lbs that I'm trying to relose so I can start over where I was prior to that episode. Maybe I will mention this to my psychiatrist that I see next month. I do think that depression contributes to weight gain for many folks. Some folks lose while others gain. I recently changed medications and eating made me feel better. Nausea? Eat Headache? Eat Feeling down? Eat. Glad you are back.

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GRANPATTIE 6/27/2011 10:35AM

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YAY, for you Marsha! Remember that baby steps will add up, not to be too hard on yourself because you are, after all, human, and that every person here has been or is right there where you are. We're here for you, hoping you're there for us, and we'll make it together.

Glad to read this.

Always count your blessings!!!
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JAKEANDNELLIE 6/27/2011 10:34AM

    I've been in exactly the same place and gained the 30 pounds, too!
I think I'm finally on my way back, taking each day as it comes and renewing my commitment to myself each morning.
Maybe this was a necessary step in our journey to prove to us what will happen when we are not consistent - I don't know, but it has definitely been a difficult and painful lesson to learn and one that I hope not to repeat.
I'm focusing on moving more throughout my day and it's helping me keep focused.
Adding more water will definitely help. I also upped my calories about 300 per day. I decided that I needed to feel satisfied to resist cravings. Have you thought about doing that?
emoticon You can do this! I am TRULY right there beside you!
Stay positive!

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JCBABY2 6/27/2011 10:31AM

    ugh bingeing caused me to gain 50 pounds! I was in the same position as you! Keep working hard and keep your motivation up and the pounds will melt right off :) Head up! The future is bright!

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