Sunday, June 26, 2011
Last year I felt I was reaching my stride. With the help of SparkPeople.com, I was able to lose 40 pounds, exercise without tiring, and even ran my first 5k in nearly 20 years. On February 19, 2011, I was to start a new trend. Since then I have set a few new records, but not necessarily ones that I wanted to set. In the last four months I have; died twice, been admitted to the hospital three times, road in the ambulance five times, and have had two shirts cut off me.
Here is the nice thing though, thanks again to SparkPeople, I am pretty healthy. Now you wouldn't think I am healthy by the previous paragraph, but I am by all medical measurement standards. My blood pressure is normal, I have no irregular heartbeats, there are no blockages in my heart, and just about any blood test you can think of has a positive number.
I am blessed, fortunate, and all around lucky. However, I am not what I was at the end of last year. I have gained all of my weight back and am not allowed to exercise until the doctors can pinpoint or prevent what is causing me to go into cardiac arrest. For the most part, I feel fine. Just a few weeks ago, I felt fine, then a little dizzy, and then I was waking up from the ground. Does this scare me? Yes, very much so. I do have an ICD in me now that will shock me back to life, but I would much rather not have to deal with it at all.
Now, for the returning champion part. This morning, after stepping on the scale and seeing the dreadful return of where I was, I am now more determined than other. Now, I can be like Rocky V, Rambo 6, or the most recent Indiana Jones. In other words, I can make a comeback even though I have this working against me. I can make up a bunch of excuses, but when I look around me, I find lots of people fighting past those excuses.
I don't know if I will ever be allowed to run again, but that doesn't mean I can't come up with some other good goals. I'm looking forward to working towards these goals along with all the rest of the good people here on SparkPeople. And I am convinced, more than ever, that we CAN do it!