Saturday, June 25, 2011
Stress and not falling off the wagon!
To say that my life and that of my husband have been stressful over the last couple of months would be an understatement. The life changing events are for another blog; how I've reacted to the stress has been nothing short of amazing to me. I still cry.....a lot. I'm still angry and hurt but am trying my best to work out those feelings.
In the past. my way of dealing with stress was to eat anything and everything made of simple carbs. A whole recipe of pancakes or waffles, with a cube of butter and a cup of syrup, doughnuts, toast, butter and jam. You get the picture. I would eat my way into a food coma, then sit on my ever widening butt watching TV all day. My stomach was constantly upset and I spent any time not in front of the television on the toilet. I didn't sleep well and headaches were common.
So far, other than bouncing up and down by a couple of pounds my weight has stayed the same. I have flirted with binges a couple of times but have managed to avoid a full fledged binge. I continue to exercise on a regular basis and have added many more steps and miles to my days. When stress threatens to overwhelm me I take a walk, run or hike. I run on my mini trampoline. I go to the YMCA. I take a step and Pilates class. I strength train.....anything to keep me moving. Never in a million years did I think I would turn to exercise instead of food. Exercise calms me, helps me to stay more centered, make my brain & body feel better.
It is still a struggle not to eat an entire bag of M & Ms or a carton of ice cream if they are around. It's even hard to get all of my steps & exercise on some days. But, the feeling I get as I drift off to sleep after an active day when I've eaten well is priceless. My former fat girl self is still in the shadows, often begging to come back. I'll keep her at bay by practicing my new passion......exercise in any form!