Friday, June 24, 2011
Everything is fine with the baby - heart beat a good 151bpm, size is measuring fine, head down, everything on track for 26.3wks.
However, I have gained another f'ing 10lbs since my last visit about a month ago.
This puts me up to 183lbs, somewhere I never wanted to be again in my life. A mental place I hoped to never have to come back to - reminding me of everything bad about being fat that I thought I was done with. A total gain since the beginning of this of 30lbs. sh*t.
I am so disappointed in myself and my obviously bad food choices or whatever has caused this ridiculous amount of weight gain in 4 short weeks. Seriously? 10lbs?
I am so upset right now, it is hard to even articulate the amount of emotional distress this is causing me.
I cannot wait to be done with this process and just have the baby and get back to my real body. I am seriously thinking I will never repeat the pregnancy process in the future. This is just too much.
What a way to start a weekend.