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I don't want to be sad any more

Thursday, June 23, 2011

What is wrong with me?
I came here for support and usually get it. But I posted a question on a message board about the cabbage soup diet...I think I pissed someone off or I am reading way more into her comment. I felt as if she yelled at me, lie a little child. Then I cried like a little child... What is wrong with me? I cant seem to pull it all together. I really want to lose weight and be healthy. I started out at 280 about 2 years ago. I lost down to 203. Then gained back up to 240. I got back down t 228 and cant get any lower. And even weirder, every morning I get on the scale and weigh 238 240 again but at night I weigh 228 again. EVERY night. My goal is 130, I am beginning to believe it is out of reach. Today I threw the scale away!!!!
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REBELBLITZ 6/25/2011 3:04PM

    Sorry that you are down.

hmmm...I remember cabbage soup when I was on Weight Watchers. It was considered a go to food when I didn't want to count points. It was great in the winter to keep me warm too.

You will meet your goal. Stay focused. Take 1 day at a time. You can do it. Eat within your range. Track your food and your exercise. emoticon
The scale will come down. emoticon

Rooting for you to be your healthiest ever!

Cheryl

P.S. Sending happy thoughts your way. emoticon

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TBRUNNER0 6/25/2011 9:08AM

    Thanks again for all the support! And I will come over to your page, I need some help! Thanks

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FUTUREHOPE49 6/24/2011 5:44PM

    Its no surprise that you cried, its probably the shock from recent events! Take no notice of people like that, they are not worth bothering about! I don't know what your question was about the cabbage soup diet, but I can say that I tried it a few years ago and have the book. I did lose quite a bit of weight on it, but didn't keep it off when I came off the diet! I couldn't keep it up very long, I think it affects my thyroid. I just eat a lot of vegetables and as much fruit as possible, along with wholegrains and some protein at the moment and that is how I lost weight along with exercise. If you need any help, just come on over to my page and I will see what I can do! I have done a lot of yo-yo dieting over the years and the scales still go up and down now! Sometimes its better to get the tape measure out, you quite often see a difference when the scales don't move! keep your chin up!

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MEMORY-JANE 6/24/2011 8:57AM

    Hey listen- sometimes people are idiots.

I have been on a similar weight loss experience. Its hard enough to lose weight- and some people like you and I have it harder than others. And the people who dont struggle this way have NO STINKING IDEA.

I know the sadness you speak of. I have felt it too. Just yesterday I had a woman I dont know tell me that a certain article of clothing would even make some as big as I am look thin.

I came home and instead of crying ( which is where I started btw!!!) I got angry. and I took it out on my stationary bike, the weeds in the yard and then on my bike outside. The whole time I just let anger out. I didnt think about how fat I was or how this would help me lose weight. I just angrily pedaled up and down the street. And- I felt much better after that :)

Dont let turkeys get you down, ( That's the best advice my mother ever gave me.)

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MEMORY-JANE 6/24/2011 8:57AM

    Hey listen- sometimes people are idiots.

I have been on a similar weight loss experience. Its hard enough to lose weight- and some people like you and I have it harder than others. And the people who dont struggle this way have NO STINKING IDEA.

I know the sadness you speak of. I have felt it too. Just yesterday I had a woman I dont know tell me that a certain article of clothing would even make some as big as I am look thin.

I came home and instead of crying ( which is where I started btw!!!) I got angry. and I took it out on my stationary bike, the weeds in the yard and then on my bike outside. The whole time I just let anger out. I didnt think about how fat I was or how this would help me lose weight. I just angrily pedaled up and down the street. And- I felt much better after that :)

Dont let turkeys get you down, ( That's the best advice my mother ever gave me.)

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CAROLIAN 6/24/2011 4:39AM

    I use cabbage soup diet occassionally but i have terribble trouble with wind.
I make a mixed veg soup containing 1lb each of leeks carrot onion swede which i grate into a pan with veg stock or stock cubes also 6oz dried soup mix{ lentils barley etc} medium size potato couple sticks chopped celery a couple of green cabbage leaves.This adds more veg to diet and not much wind. I can go to bed weighing 200lb and wake up at 203 must eat in my dreams lol emoticon

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TBRUNNER0 6/24/2011 12:24AM

    Thanks for the support. I really needed it!

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JONICACALDWELL 6/23/2011 8:46PM

    God job on the scale. Sounds like a Alice in Wonderland type situation. I read the cabbage soup thread, commented on your Spark page. The problem with online anything is reading emotion. People hit caps lock and don't even think about what that "means" any more. And the soup is good! If you do the diet and get used to it for a few days, it might help you reconsider what you are eating normally and help you incorporate more fruits, veggies and of course the soup itself.

Hearing about your nephew makes it hard for me to breath right now- so I can't even imagine how you are feeling. Please take care of yourself and your family, after all that's what matters most at the end of the day, not the numbers on the scale. emoticon

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JULESDUD1 6/23/2011 7:39PM

    Please don't let other people cause you pain! I've been seeing some nastiness on the recipe pages lately. There are people in this world who just feel the need to control everthing & everyone. That is THEIR problem. You have done nothing wrong! I enjoy the comments people make on the recipes- ideas that contribute to the recipe and give me wider choices. Or statements of how easy, hard, tasty, bland etc the recipes are. I'm a poor cook so these are very helpful to me - SO THANK YOU!

Do you like people who snap at others, are irritable & bossy? No... then their opinions when voiced are not adding value to your life! If you don't like that type of person, you don't respect their opinions/statements. In fact- just keep thinking or saying... I don't like the way that was done & I don't accept or respect that opinion or statement.... If you don't respect or accept it, it will eventually stop hurting.

I had to find this out the hard way. I wanted so much for everyone to like me AND for me to like them. I finally discovered one day when someone was very rude to me that why should I care & keep trying... I didn't even like them.. (Lightbulb moment). I didn't care for the way they treated me or others.... so I didn't have to hate them, but I certainly wasn't going to keep putting myself in their line of fire or accept what they did/said as truth & valuable.

That is freedom!!! May you have freedom & with it peace! Keep going friend! emoticon

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