Thursday, June 23, 2011
Its been four weeks and I have not lost a pound. Two weeks ago I upped my exercise to riding my stationary bike for 36 minutes and to weight lifting 25 minutes and my treadmill for 35 minutes. I put my calories up to 1500 to be able to do the exercise. Spark recommends eating more but I just can't do that yet. I have always lost weight on 1200 calories and I really don't know how to act eating this much. I am used to being punished for being over weight.
You must eat 1200 and eat stuff you really don't care for but it is diet food. You must be irritable and fainting, that way you know you will lose a lot. I have lost 100 pounds a couple of times and have not kept it off. I wonder why? I was on a diet. When I got off the staving I ate everything in sight and went back to fast foods and sweets. Wow, did I really think I would keep it off. Well this time I am changing my attitude about food. I eat what I like. I can have anything I want. I have to make wise choices. Will a couple of bites satisfy me? Why do I have to have the whole thing? The only thing I have given up is processed sweets. That was my choice. I have had plenty in my life so I don't think I will miss them. I do eat a little honey , 1 tablespoon. If I really want some ice cream I mix up a frozen banana and almond chocolate milk and freeze it and I have ice cream that is good for me and will not make me binge. If I want a sweet I eat fruit or mix a few nuts, honey and cocoa and freeze it and you have a sweet that is healthy. I don't want them often but they are there if I want them. I am learning for the first time to enjoy eating healthy. I feel so good. I feel like when I finish my exercise in the morning that I can do anything I set my mind too. I'm tired of fighting this weight. I want to eat and enjoy life and feel good about myself and for the last three months I have.
I know the weight will turn lose when my body feels like it should. I will continue eating like I am and doing my exercise. I know I did not get this big by eating 1500 calories and exercising so its no biggy that I have not lost in 4 weeks I will sooner or later. And if I never loss another pound I will continue eating 1500 calories and exercising and be happy with my life.
I know I will be a lot healthier.