Thursday, June 23, 2011
it is hard to write this blog as i canīt seem to get the words out as i would like them to be.we often forget how great life can be or is and donīt know how to apreciate the here and now.i know most of the time my life revolves around working arouind drīs,hospitals theraphyīs etc that i can forget to see what is before my nose.this last two and a half weekshas been differant as apart from ayman being niggerly all day yesturday and having fever the kids ,alhamdullah have been not ill,in the sense of being fast normal kids.they still have to take there medicine which is the norm but no extra medicine ,no extra trips to dr etc.we have been bikriding together,going swimming,strawberry picking etc and my husband has been taking them swimming.infact he is there now with zakariya and ayyub.it is so great to be able to do theese things without the usual worry that they will get ill or something will happen when there that is is hard to believe what a weight has actually lifted.not that you notice it is such a weight at the time as you are too busy when they are ill to notice or to stress to take the time to notice.it is only on the rare occassions like this when none of them are ill that it dawns on me what a pressure there is normally.i can only speak for myself but it is really like a differant life to have chaildren that are not ill.i can only hope and prayer that this will continue a bit longer but feel i am already pushing my luck by putting that in words.this is the longest time so far that one or the other of them is not ill.to see my kids acting like normal(not that they arenīt normal)kids and running,playing,swimming etc without get out of breath or being sick or in pain etc is such a joy that i canīt remember when i last thought it.but it is so true that life at times can be so differant.just wanted to mention it to you all my friends as my last few blogs have been a bit on the down side.sometimes life is good and we are blessed.everyday we have is a day we can make what we want it to be.we should make the most of what we have when we have it rather than thinking of things we donīt have.
i am here
.i am alive.
i have a man who i love and who loves me
i have three beautiful kids who make the most out of what god gave them.
i have a roof over my head
i have food
i have water
i have electric
i have a lot to be thankful for
i have to learn not just to be thankful in times like now but all the time.life can be differant,life is differant.be thankful for small mercyīs.i know i am thankful for mine.especially the chance to see all three children not ill at the same time.to watch them do kid like things without worrying every second what the outcome will be.appreciate at all times what you have in the here and now as we donīt know how long here and now will be.