First this is only my second day here at SparkPeople.... so hopefully it's ok for me to just lay it all out here like this.... but this is me.... the road that brought me to who I am - better or worse.

I was married in 1999 & after 5 years of trying to get pregnant I started looking into weight loss surgery - I was morbidly obese & my surgeon was convinced that if I lost the weight I could get pregnant. So in 2003 I had a RNY Gastric Bypass and in 18 months, after MUCH WORK (going to the gym to work out as a part time job) I lost 200 lbs. Then 2 months later (7 years of trying) on Mothers Day I found out we were pregnant... Blessed with a baby girl in 2006 I felt SO blessed & was happy with just this one long awaited child.... managed to keep the weight down & off.... then Mothers Day 2008 we were surprised again.... another baby coming... this time it would be a little boy.....

The difference between my pregnancies was that the weight just kept coming on... & I haven't been able to get it off since my son's birth in 2009..... But how could I EVER EVER EVER complain when I was given these two gifts... these two AMAZING blessings.... it was always only to be a Mother...

Since October I've gained more weight with the stresses in my life - a cross country move - job losses -Oh yeah & Stage 4 cancer for my Mom whose 55 years old.... & now I have 100 lbs that need to come off.... again.....

No excuses, I know.... but I let myself go.... and wish I didn't.... it is what it is.... and now....

I am not a failure.... I have kept 100 lbs off for almost 8 years.... but I am not going to be satisfied with that.... not once I have gotten a taste of what it's like at the other end of the scale....

Let's get this game on again!