Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Okay, here is the thing, I have been losing and gaining the same 1lb for the last 3 weeks. I don't know why. I have been running, and walking, and Zumba-ing, and cycling, and just about getting my rear going for 20-30 minutes everyday. I have also been staying (for the most part) within my calorie ranges (a few days I went about 20 calories over, and there was the day I cycled for 28 miles...I think I ate about 1700 calories that day, but I burned over 1000 during my ride). So I've either come up with the fact that I am not working out enough, or I am not eating enough and I am actually in starvation mode... both are possible but I feel like it is incredibly hard to eat more some days. Other days, sure but those are the days filled with wine and chocolate so yeah I'm goin' over!
Anyways, today I decided that I am going to try and ignor the scale in fact I would like to
but I wont. Today I played Tennis for an hour with my man, and then later that evening I finished W3D3 of my C25K (plus some just for good measure). I ate what I ate, but don't think that it was enough...Today I burned just over 1000 calories and only managed to eat 1430 calories. I am going to finally start doing some strength training (tomorrow) to see if that helps, even if it is only helpful with the inches. I am also going to focus on how I feel, in stead of what the scale says. And you know what? I feel great. I feel amazing. I can feel the strength in my legs. I can feel my lungs getting stronger. I feel less anxious. And when it's all said and done that is why I came back to Spark - to feel better. To have more energy. To be able to physically do the things that I love to do. Sure, it would be super awesome to be able to drop a ton of weight and be back in smaller jeans and feel good about showing off more skin, but that isn't the number one reason I am doing this. I am here, working, learning, growing, to feel better - not look better. That knowledge is what is keeping me going, what has kept me going for these last three weeks. Today I ran without my inhaler. Today I ran on a new trail and didn't die from a panic attack. Today I believed in myself. Today I grew.
So damn the scale! and here's to ME!