Monday, June 20, 2011
How is it that i can loss 26 pounds, and still wear the same size jeans. The fact that I'm short doesnt make looking for jeans any easier, but i thought i would be able to fit into a smaller size. Am i kidding myself that I'm making a change? I feel like I'm spinning my wheels and going no where. The scale says that I'm losing weight, so it must be true?
One of the things i long to do, is go into a store and be able to fit into all the clothes i think are cute. I hate that half the things i try on make me look pregnant. and most of all i hate how clothes shopping makes me feel about myself. I always leave the store with little or no clothes at all, thinking to myself " your so fat, why arent u small enough to fit into those clothes?" Exercise, and eating right makes me feel great, but i look in the mirror and i feel horrible. Some times i feel like not eating anymore, or exercise a second time. At the end of my failed shopping day, i had to cover up my mirrors, i just cant look at myself.