These things are true:

1. I suck at dieting.
2. I track every, single thing I eat. The good, the bad, the ugly.
3. I burned 5000 calories last week. Yeah, FIVE THOUSAND.
4. I haven't lost (or gained) any weight in 5 months.

So, I'm trying a new food philosophy. Basically, AM I HUNGRY? If yes, eat. If no, don't eat. Once no longer hungry...stop eating.

About a month ago, I joined a new gym and incorporated strength training and spinning into my routine. And two weeks ago marathon training started and I've actually been doing my long runs....instead of half-@ssing it through a 6 miler.

And you know what? I AM CONSTANTLY STARVING. Constantly. I feel like I have the appetite of a 17 year old boy.

And the whole tracking thing was just becoming depressing. My "range" is 1800-2200 calories a day. That's a lot. There's really no need to track, because I eat all the time. Plus, I tend to blow my calorie range out of the water on the weekends. And still no weight gain. I mean, also no loss, but I'm at a "healthy" weight....even though the last 10 pounds off would be nice.

So, I don't know. We'll see how this goes. I guess I don't really need to lose any more weight. I'm 5'7'' and i fluctuate between 141 and 145. I just still don't feel comfortable in a bikini. So if all I do is "tone" from here on out and not lose anything else, that's fine with me.

Sorry this was a bit of a rambler. But I have religiously tracked my food for 7 months. I'm a little scared to see what happens, but I think it's good. The tracker is supposed to be a tool, not a crutch. So maybe I'm ready to stand on my own?

And MCM training went well this week. We did 12 miles, in less time than I took me to slog through 11 miles last week. It was cooler and less humid and that made all the difference. There were also more people in my pace group this week...I'd say 8 or so of us ran together more or less the whole time. I enjoyed meeting some new people and have pals to chat with along the way. 19 weeks out! Oo-rah!