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Health and joy are optional

Saturday, June 18, 2011

I used to tell myself that I was forging a new relationship with food. And then I realized that I can't have a relationship with food, because food can't relate back to me. Something that one-sided can't be a relationship!

Now I realize that I use food to express my relationship with myself.

I had unrealistic expectations that I couldn't live up to, so I was chronically disappointed in myself (without really being conscious that I was), and I used food as a kind of punishment for the failings I imagined I had.

Then I used it as a balm for my suffering and as a reward for getting throughout the gruelling emotional obstacle course I'd set.

Now I see myself more realistically, flaws and all. I'm a good person who's working on her issues. Like everyone else, I'm just doing the best I can.

And I want to treat myself as well as I treat others. So I made a vow to eat for positive reasons, like nourishment, health, energy and pleasure. No more eating for negative reasons. I still have painful emotions sometimes, but now I don't make them worse by eating and avoiding.

Food is essential; if I want to stay alive, I have to eat. Health and joy are optional. I can choose to be unhappy and miserable if I want. BUT I WANT TO BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY….AND I AM!

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    I love this blog!!!! Just one question to help you plan out how this will work for you (and you don't have to tell me the answer, just yourself) What are you going to do when you do feel angry with yourself instead of eating? How are you going to conquer those feelings?
    You've got this! YOU CAN DO IT!!!
    2444 days ago
    I really enjoyed this blog ! Such a positive spin on things ! I pray that others will grasp hold when they read this !

    Thank you !!
    2444 days ago
    Great mindset :) emoticon
    2444 days ago
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