Friday, June 17, 2011
I am still here, check in most days, read posts but just have not interacted much. Thanks to my online friends here I am still around. It has been a hard 6 months with John passing but I am trying to make strides. Getting on the computer is getting easier. At first it was so hard because that is how John and I talked most days. Turning the computer on and no message from John was just a daily reminder that he was gone but I am moving forward.
Thanks to my friends here on SP for letting me know in so many little ways that I didn't slip though the cracks even if I felt like it.
I am doing good weight wise, still losing, although a lot more slowly. Most of that is my fault, not doing a lot on the excerise front. My doctor said I would never get in the 130's...na na boo boo on him, I stay between 133 and 137 depending on the day. And I am sure if I could get rid of the extra/saggy skin it would be another 10 pounds less. I'll take the extra skin any day, so much healthier.
Next month I go to my PCP for blood work and a check up so we will really see where I am at health wise. I know I need to get back on my vitamins and stuff but for some reason just can't seem to do it....lame I know ~laughs~
Went to Walmart the other day to get some new clothes, bras, etc... Before I was wearing a 46DDD, I got a 38C. I think I should have gone a cup bigger now that I got it home. Went from a 22/24 pants to a 8/10 jeans. Bagging in the thighs and butt but need the extra room for the tummy flab...yuk! Don't think I have worn a 8/10 since I was 17, I will be 52 years old next month.
Funny thing how you get use to certain things, feeling a certain way. Didn't even realize how bad I felt til the weight was gone and I feel good again. Feeling bad had just become "normal". How sad is that.
Things I would have changed about having WLS: wouldn't have done it in August in Florida...it was too hot and I think it had a lot to do with recovery. I wouldn't have insisted on being so "tough" and would have asked for more help that first month. Other than that, don't think I would have changed a thing. Granted WLS is NOT for every one but for me, it has been a life saver!