This is my 1st blog to date -( on spark ppl that is). Don't know why it's taken me so long to submit one being that I've been a member of spark ppl since January of this year. I guess I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired now. It's Official! I'm fed up with being "Fed up" literally and figuratively speaking! I've come to the realization as I look back over the months of me actually putting an effort in trying to "battle the bulge" that weight-loss is not just something u can "just do it" like the Nike motto. It takes alot of Mental preparation. Being that your head and your mind is in fact the powerhouse of your temple/ body simply put, if your mind commits to it your body will fall in line. I've realized that when I did the Master Cleanse back in September 2010 b4 I was even a member of Spark- I was amazed at how the saying "If you believe it you can achieve it" showed to be true b4 my very own eyes. I managed to actually tell my body not to eat any food at all for 10 days and it actually did! The mind is a very powerful thing. I'm still amazed at my accomplishment. The commitment, drive, and determination I had my 1st time mind you fully trying to lose weight. I scared myself which made me also think about the quote about ppl fearing not fearing failure but rather their success and strength. So this year I took a stab at it again just to test that quotational "theory" when I did Lent and Again a major success! So now that I know for fact that My mind is more powerful than I give it credit for I've decided to stop setting such grandeur goals to reach that I know for fact I'll be dissapointed if I don't succeed fully and I've decided to set weekly minor goals b/c they seem more attainable. I figure if I can go 10 days w/o eating and 40 days of Lent that I can just about do anything I set my mind to- that in fact is Reasonable of course! I wanted to lose 30lbs a month! I know- right- a super high goal- and when that month came to an end and I only managed to lose 10lbs I was mad. My mind got discouraged and basically said screw this girl we need a break gimme some chips and ice-cream b/c we deserve a reward one way or the other! Sad but true that's what my mind does. SO now I've made up my mind to finally make up my mind! I'm tired of the fluctuations and flippity-flops on again off again see saw INSTABILITY of EVERYTHING in my life. Now I'm operating under the proven fact that stability and change at the same time starts with only ME, MYSELF,& I. I can't change my surroundings, environment, other people, nor situations, so now that I've tried numerous times (& realized how much TIME I'm wasting)- it's just gonna be ME & this Noggin of Mine! Here's to the power of the Positive Mind & the Body that will follow (it's already been proven).