Thursday, June 16, 2011
It seems that I am always searching for balance. In my work (too much, too little), in my relationships (caretaking, withdrawing), and especially in my health (too much exercise..too little food/too much food..too little exercise) and so on and so on and so on!!
I went to a funeral this week. I looked around and thought of all the ways in which this person had impacted all that were there, and those that couldn't be there. And I looked at myself. The choices made that have cost me, the choices made that have blessed me. And the many, many times I haven't made a choice at all, instead accepting mediocrity. I've been accepting that lately in terms of my fitness (well, at least the last couple of days). I was in a funk. A "don't want to do nothing, just want to eat and watch TV after work" funk.
I feel worse for wear, but maybe I'm stronger mentally at this moment. Because I'm DONE not counting myself worthwhile to achieve more. I see all my SparkFriends achieving. I see them struggling and getting right back on track. I see them accepting imperfections but not accepting personal quitting for themselves. So, I won't quit.
Tonight I'll get my fanny to the gym and dance and lift and be happy to feel the sweat dripping off my nose.
I make the choice to MOVE.
I make the choice to fight back against my own mediocrity.
I make the choice to achieve my goals, one step at a time!!