Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Normally when I feel overwhelmed by an upcoming project I eat. I eat when I think about the project, when I am working on the project, and when I am done with the project. I am trying to figure out what eating provides for me in those times. I know I am nervous because I want to do my best, wondering if I will do a good enough job to acomplish my goals. I think it is the hardest when I am doing grant writing. Competition is stiff in the grant writing world. Alot of great causes and only so much money to go around. So writing a compelling arguement for my cause is crucial to hopefully being considered. It is a lot like applying for jobs, lots of people want the oppurtunity and the person who presents the best case will be awarded. So I supose in a way I tend to overanalyze all of the flaws of the program I run and if I am doing the very best that I can. Self analysis can be good, but I will never be able to meet the expectations I have for myself. So the way I look at it I have two options. I can give up writing grants and doing presentations and watch the amazing program I have developed suffer. Or I can stop and take a moment to examine my dilema and figure out a way to address this issue head on and become a stronger person and a better program director. I think I want to become stronger.