Upbeat attitude impossible all the time
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
This is my blog today. Please don't read. I'm just venting to myself and it would bore you.
Well I am always trying to be upbeat about everything. I don't like negativity. However, just have to say I am really discouraged and just don't know which way to turn anymore. On the positive, I've lost 20pounds I think, I 'm afraid to get on the scales. It only took me a year to do it. Most people it takes a couple of months. Also on the positive I've managed to keep most of the 20 pounds OFF. Yay me. I just can't seem to make any progress towards getting past this one place that I am continually stuck. I can gain and Relose down to that point, but forget getting any further down. No, my clothes aren't fitting any better, no I do not have any more energy than I did.
Ok, so I 've lost 20# and kept it off!
I have not lost any weight for almost a year, other than the 5#'s I gained back and lost again.
I've read articles after article. suggestion after suggestion. I cannot keep consistant with anything I try to start. I thought if I try and log everything I eat today and keep it up I'll do better. I can't even make it through the day logging my food. By 3:00 I'm forgetting to do it. Just totally forgetting. Like I never did it or I'll think about it and too lazy to actually sit down and write it down.
I'm hoping for a big turn around starting tonight. My husband bought a bike lastnight and I hope we can go bike riding. I hope that this will build leg muscle and consequently start burning more calories.
I am absolutely no good at counting calories. I was trying the point thing with Weight Watchers on my own, I didn't join and was excited as the first couple of weeks I managed to lose 2 and 1 1/2 pounds but then stalemate again as I got to that area that I cannot budge past. My weight tracker does not reflect my true weight. I'm more like 205-206 and just continue to hang there or go up to 209.
I can't even track my food for a day and to count calories is just not happening. I can't figure out how many calories are in my casserole I'm having for supper or the ribs that my father in law is cooking or the sweet potatoe fries he makes. How do you eat normal food and still lose weight. I do attribute my success at keeping those 20#'s off to the fact that I have become a better veggie and fruit eater than I used to be.
Let's hope biking gives me a new found love and lease on this weight loss journey, because I have just about reached the end of my rope of motivation and not sure how to regain it when there are absolutely no results. No weight loss, no health benefits, no inches lost.
Ok enough negativity for the day. I'm gonna go home and try to work up the motivation to make my husband go biking tonight, although I'm so sleepy now it's hard for me to not go home and wanna sleep.