So life in the past few months has been hectic. Iï¿½ve been through some life upsets- I lost my job, was unemployed for a month, and Ross still hasnï¿½t been able to find a job that will work around his class and flying schedule. I have been blessed with a temporary job that may become permanent, and I am very happy to have a source of income again.
As it always seems to happen when I am confronted with stress, I have fallen off the wagon since starting this new job. I tend to deal with stress by turning to unhealthy foods to make me feel better, and boy have I ever done that. The scale shows I have gained back those 5 pounds I was bragging about losing, and I feel overall about as healthy as a slug, and I feel like I look like it since I have lost the muscle mass I gained as well.
I am doing my best to temper my after work stress related food choices with healthy items throughout the day- oatmeal or yogurt for breakfast, salad for lunch, upping my water consumption. I start to feel better when I do that. Then I have a super cruddy day at work, and what do I do when 5 oï¿½clock rolls around? I head straight home and dive spoon first into the pint of cookie dough ice cream, ruining all those healthy choices I made throughout the day. Does a salad and water cancel out half a pint of ice cream? Yeah, I donï¿½t think so.
I am stuck in this cycle- every few months I do great, I meet my calorie and food goals, water consumption is great, spark goals are in reach. Then life happens and I tumble off the healthy habits wagon and fall into the dirt, and this time I didnï¿½t even try to chase that wagon until now.
Instead of focusing entirely on dealing with the symptoms of my bad choices, I need to start dealing with the cause: stress. That is my ultimate goal: figure out how to manage stress in a healthy way and stop taking my stress out on my body. Learn to gain confidence at work and stop doubting my ability is the first step. This time, I want to work from the inside out.
Being aware of my behavior is the first step to changing, and now that I have become aware to what I was doing, I can work on changing my behavior, like substituting healthy choices that will satisfy a craving while not derailing my goals. Maybe instead of going for the ice cream, I can grab a handful of crunchy baby carrots and get the sweet I was craving while getting a satisfying crunch.
Because if I want to get to my goal of looking amazing here:
I need to work on mind AND body.