Wednesday, June 15, 2011
I gotta say, it's tough to exercise and eat right while being a mom. Whether it's because of lack of sleep, the unending pile of laundry and baby chores, the redirection of most of my efforts going toward the babe, etc., I just don't feel motivated.
My baby boy is six months today. SIX MONTHS! I am in utter disbelief. I mean, don't get me wrong, there are nights that seem to drag on, but in general, I cannot believe he is half a year old. It's crazy to think! I can still remember the early newborn days when he couldn't hold his head up or stay awake for more than an hour. Not so much anymore!
Anyway, I really have done a bad job at getting back into exercise and eating right and sticking with it. I'll have a "good" week, then I'll fall off and undo everything. I kinda thought that once I wasn't pregnant anymore, I was going to have this surge of motivation. You see, while I was pregnant, I couldn't get myself to run, so all I did was walk and do light elliptical, which is a lot more moderate than what I used to do. I felt like I missed the hardcore workouts where I was pouring sweat and gasping for breath. But now that I can do these type of workouts again, I don't want to.
Also, I did not gain very much at all during pregnancy (only about 15 lbs.). I felt like a cute pregnant lady. Well, after giving birth, I've felt nothing near cute. My weight is mid to low 120s, which is pretty much where I always felt good about myself, but man, do I not look like I'm just in the 120s. My stomach has a lot more fat/skin on it and so I just don't feel light and skinny anymore. And it scares the bejeesus that this change could be permanent.
Anyway, I know having a flat stomach isn't the most important thing in the world, but I can't help but feel down about not feeling good about myself.
I have been getting back into two mile jogs and have been doing some workout videos, so hopefully I'll begin to feel the fruits of that labor (no pun intended) and will keep with it.
Just for fun, I'm going to add some pictures of my "little" boy. I love you, Barrett and although Mommy feels fat, she does think it was totally worth it! Oh, the upload pics wouldn't work, so I'll try to add them in my photo gallery!