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Sunday, June 12, 2011

Change on the outside will have no effect on your happiness or fulfillment unless you change on the inside, too - Healthy Reflection 6-12-11

I have to disagree with this one sentence. Having lived the last 20 years of my life being not just obese, but morbidly obese, I know what carrying the weight will do to you inside. It greatly lowered my confidence in myself and my self-esteem. It is embarrassing to have to struggle to walk, get up out of a chair, wonder what other people are saying when they see you eat. It becomes easier to just stay at home and let the world come to you instead of going out to greet the world head on.

I have also lived in the thin world...ok, maybe not for long, but I was there once. LOL....and the difference in your whole demeanor is amazing. You walk with your head up and a little attitude. You know inside that you can take on the world and win just because you have more pride in yourself. When you walk it is with a swish in your hips not a waddle on your feet. People no longer avoid your gaze, they return your smile.

I don't know why large people are treated different ... large people are just as smart as the next person and can have wonderful personalities and are just as loving as thin people. But from experience I have found the treatment is different.

I look forward to the day that I can be looked at as a real part of my society. I look forward to making those people that couldn 't meet my gaze, wish that they had. I look forward to running to the future instead of waddling toward it.
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BSYWOMAN 6/20/2012 8:18PM

    Knowing you as I do, I know that you will make your final goal and never mind how long it took you to get there.

I lived with a morbidly obese mother so I understand where you are coming from. She, as well as you, wondered the same things. Toward the end of her life, she only went out to go her doctors visits. I never asked, but now looking back on it, I think she was ashamed of how she looked. To all 4 of her children, with me being the oldest, she was just Mama, and we all 4 got into plenty of fights defending her honor, if you will. There were a lot of boys that soon found out you don't say mean things about MY mama and not wear a whipping, especially from a girl who wore glasses...yep, I had my own cross to bear...heard everything from ole cross-eyes (which I'm not) to 4-eyes to everything in between. At the time it hurt but in the long run, it made me a better person, or I like to think it did.

Keep on doing what you're doing and you WILL win your race and I hope to be able to be there when you do. emoticon

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SLAYINGDRAGONS 1/19/2012 8:49AM

    I know. I am glad that you return to a central focus once in awhile and keep working at it. Me too! One day we will figure this out! Why? Because of persistence, determination, and a refusal to give up or give in!!!
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