Saturday, June 11, 2011
Here it is, my 10% key chain!! This is the 3rd time in 6 years that I've earned this key chain. I am hoping the THIRD time is the CHARM! And speaking of charms, I am going to put my WW 5K Walk it Challenge charm right on it!! In addition to doing cartwheels across my living room floor, I bought myself these flowers to celebrate losing 10% of my starting weight!!
What does it really mean though?
It actually means a lot to me. It means I lost 10% of my starting weight. It means I reached a place I'd been trying to get to for months now. It's not the ultimate destination, but it's a stopping point along the journey. A place worthy of noting. Why? Because tt means that I stuck with it, I didn't give up. I have to work so hard some days I ask myself, "Is this worth it?" And the answer is always yes. It's worth having shed all the extra weight, it's worth having gone to all those Zumba classes, it's worth all the good choices or better choices every day. It's worth the occasional backslides and even the occasional gains on the scale. It's worth the time...and it did take a lot of time...and it's worth it because, simply put, I'm worth it.
I can get frustrated and even a little angry at myself when I think about all the time it took to get here. But then I reflect on that and realize that isn't what matters. That's what I spent most of 2010 thinking about--how I let myself down and gained back the weight I had lost, on my 1st and 2nd go-rounds. That is the thinking that REALLY cost me, it cost me time and energy and self-esteem.
Today, I'm thinking instead of the goal. The goal is a healthy BMI. The goal is to feel better in my clothes. The goal is to be the best role model I can be for my kids AND to be around longer for them. The goal is a number on a scale, but it is also so much more than that. It is living w/out fear and regrets. It's living life with both arms wide open. So, it may very well take a 1000 miles--this journey--to get my destination. But here I am taking a single step closer.
What about all of you--what are you doing to get one step closer to your goals? I'd love to hear from you!