Saturday, June 11, 2011
Actually, it's TOTALLY boring.
So I am putting along. Holding my own and maintaining my weight(it really is time for some updated photos soon) which, don't get me wrong, is totally FREAKIN' AWESOME but man, it is completely dullsville. Especially when you are exercise restricted. Next weekend, I should have been running my first full marathon but I still face at least one more surgery on my leg, running is not on the horizon for me anytime soon. I miss it terribly.
Even the urge to buy every item of clothing that fits me has passed. For awhile there, trying on clothing became my pass time. Popping into stores just to see if I could fit the next size down from the last time I was there was exciting but there is no next size down for me. I am where I was headed and that's a good thing, right?
But I am bored.
Bored. Bored. Bored.
What do you with your self after you have lost more than 140 lbs? You step up your exercise game! But I can't do that right now.
Even the need to plant myself in front of the mirror and stare at my various new body parts(Yes, I did that) has passed. Probably some kind of sign of acceptance that this is where I am, who I am, and where I am going to stay. Cool but dull. I am a girl that needs a mission.
I spent an entire year wanting to get to the maintenance stage and when I would read other blogs about how hard maintenance was, I would think, "how could it possibly be hard? Everything will be so easy when I get there!"
Don't get me wrong. I am happy. Happy with my body for once in my life. Healthier then I have ever been. I just need to somehow kick it up a notch!