Failing to succeed
My philosophy has always been I need to fail so I can succeed. I acknowledged a long time ago that I learn the hard way, by hard knocks and failure. Some give up. I persevere!
If you have known me the three years that I have been on spark – then you know I have battled many health issues on my journey to health. It has eluded me every step of the way for whatever reason. I did not let this discourage me or motivate me to quit sparking! Yes, I have had my moments, as we all do, about whether I should leave spark or stay. My doubts about staying were only because I never want my experience to discourage any one on their journey to health.
I have stuck to my healthy nutritional changes and exercising when I could to build up to consistency. It has been a rough three years. Since having my gallbladder removed (Dec 2010), I feel better than I have in years. I strive every day for health. I still have things I need to remove from my diet and I need to work out more during the week.
I focus on the things that I can do today. In February I adopted the attitude of I am looking forward, I am not looking back. I wanted March 3 to come and go, so I could get on with my life. (March 3 I had the stent removed) I started walking again March 7th, clutching my chest and working through the discomfort. Today I am walking 2 miles in 40 minutes. I am doing this with my bad foot, sometimes dragging the darn thing, but I will not give up! I am working on adding strength training; this has been a challenge for me since the beginning of my journey.
The greatest challenge I face these days is tiredness. One of the greatest challenges of kidney failure is being tired easily and it is hard to get on top of it. It can turn into exhaustion very quickly. I joined the sleep challenge in March to get back on a sleep schedule after my three surgeries this year. If you are having issues sleeping, I encourage this team for you. In four short weeks, I was sleeping better.
Being busy with full time classes, working 1-3 days a week, taking care of my parents 1-2 days a week, not to mention my husband, home, pets, my children and grandchildren – I have a busy life. I am looking for a new church, which can be stressful as well. But, with Spark, I have learned to Keep ON Keeping ON and prioritize. The most important thing I have learned from Spark for my health: I have to take care of ME.
I am here to gain health. I will not give in and I will not give up. As I say on my webpage, I fight full throttle head first through the many obstacles that stand in my way. God is for me! I am coming through and I will succeed.