Friday, June 10, 2011
Wow....I keep looking at myself in the mirror and wondering how the heck I did this to myself. I have let myself go. Ceased to care...well, now I care. When I go to my closet and none of my clothes fit so I have to go out and buy new BIGGER ones in order to have clothes to go to North Carolina with, yeah, I definitely care. What did I do? At one point I was 20 pounds away from being under 200 pounds. I was so happy and proud. Life is just not kind sometimes and it took all the fight out of me. I have to start fighting again though. I can't keep looking at clothes that used to fit me perfectly and realize they aren't even close to fitting anymore. I have gained back all 40 pounds I lost and then some. Hard to believe...I have to start fighting again. I have to get back to loving the girl in the mirror.