Thursday, June 09, 2011
Finally. The scale is moving left instead of right. OMG, it's been months since that has happened.
I just returned from a week in the mountains of Tennessee and North Carolina. I went there for a greyhound event where my mom and I displayed our greyhound arts and crafts. We had a wonderful time, but I was not very careful with my eating. I assumed I'd hold steady at best, and gain a couple at worst. But I was MOVING. Walking, loading the truck, setting up our display, and without a fenced yard for our greyhound to exercise, I had to walk her on leash whenever she needed to go out. It all added up and I'm two pounds lighter than when I left!!!
I have finally unhidden my weight ticker. I am not technically at my highest weight ever, but that's only because I had a bilateral mastectomy a couple years ago. I am in the largest size ever, and I was feeling very discouraged and humiliated.
Not anymore!!! I'm psyched, energized, and dedicated to starting over for real. I've uncovered my Gazelle Freestyle so I can get moving even on the hottest of days, and I'm shopping today for more vegetables. This has been coming for weeks now, ever since quitting a new medication that seemed to be a huge factor in my recent weight gain. I'm SO glad to be off it, and SO glad to be feeling optimistic about my health again.
It's so hard to have fallen into the common trap of losing and then gaining it back with interest. I feel like a statistic. It's SO common. And I suppose it's so human. And so indicative of how difficult this journey is.
My most heartfelt hugs to all of you who've been here. I feel such compassion for you. I'm trying to feel the same compassion for myself, rather than judgement. I'm getting better at that.
Hugs to all of you, and we CAN do it!!!