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Thursday, June 09, 2011

So...after a small gain of 2 lbs. (from 331 to 333) and a plateau at that weght for a few weeks, I've started losing again and am now 229.8. Officially under 330! Woot! :)

I weighed in yesterday and haven't told anyone yet. I tracked it here at SP, but I haven't mentioned it to my wife or anyone else. I think partly I just wanted to enjoy it quietly by myself for a little while. But the bigger part of it is that I've lost weight before and I've gained it all back again.....over and over and over and over. Because of this, I feel a little timid about telling anyone of my recent weight loss success. And also, I guess I'm a little fearful that it's somehow not *real*. Weird, I know, but there it is. I've spent so many years being overweight and gaining and losing...it's just hard to quite feel like I can really count on this being a true success. Which is so silly! And so uncharacteristic of me.

I've been asking myself at what point would I be able to feel like I could rely on the weight loss nd believe that it's real? I don't have an answer to that yet, but I think it might be a little ways away still...maybe when I get under 320? 300? Maybe it's not about the number...maybe I just need to see that I can keep up the momentum of a sustained weight loss over time.
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    emoticon on your weight loss! I know exactly what you mean about feeling like it isn't a 'real' loss. I have been plateaued for about 2 years now. I lose 1 to 2 lbs and then gain 3 lbs. I lose 4 lbs then gain back 2.5 lbs. If you look at my weight loss curve over the last 2 years it is a FLAT STRAIGHT LINE, no real ups but not going down either. I try to hold on to the fact that I am NOT gaining all my weight loss back but it is frustrating as hell to not be losing anything either. Enjoy your weight loss, believe it, build on it. You can do this. You ARE doing this!
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