Thursday, June 09, 2011
So...after a small gain of 2 lbs. (from 331 to 333) and a plateau at that weght for a few weeks, I've started losing again and am now 229.8. Officially under 330! Woot! :)
I weighed in yesterday and haven't told anyone yet. I tracked it here at SP, but I haven't mentioned it to my wife or anyone else. I think partly I just wanted to enjoy it quietly by myself for a little while. But the bigger part of it is that I've lost weight before and I've gained it all back again.....over and over and over and over. Because of this, I feel a little timid about telling anyone of my recent weight loss success. And also, I guess I'm a little fearful that it's somehow not *real*. Weird, I know, but there it is. I've spent so many years being overweight and gaining and losing...it's just hard to quite feel like I can really count on this being a true success. Which is so silly! And so uncharacteristic of me.
I've been asking myself at what point would I be able to feel like I could rely on the weight loss nd believe that it's real? I don't have an answer to that yet, but I think it might be a little ways away still...maybe when I get under 320? 300? Maybe it's not about the number...maybe I just need to see that I can keep up the momentum of a sustained weight loss over time.