Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Through most of my life, I was relatively slender, then:
- Married +10 lbs. (130)
- Stopped Smoking + 10 lbs. (140)
- Medication with side effect of increasing appetite +10 lbs (150)
But the real knocker was when I started my own business 8 years ago + 35 lbs and it was growing (185 when I finally took control). All my attention, 15 hours + days-- 7 days per week, revolved around the business. There was no time for exercise or healthy eating.
I am now within about 6 lbs of my "stopped smoking weight" and looking to get just a little below that (between 135 and 140) which I think would be the most healthy for me. (I really do not think I would look that good if I was as thin as as I was in my 20's.)
A strange side effect has happened. My interest in work and the business are almost nil. Evidence of this includes that I am writing this blog rather than working on a report which is due.
There have been other factors that may have impacted this conclusion (reunited with my son, grandson in my life, and death of my mother).
I am definitely not giving 110% any more. In fact, I doubt I am giving 10%, which is certainly impacting the bottom line. Work has always been my #1 priority so I am befuddled by my change in attitude.
I am really not sure what I want to do. I thought about just locking the doors and walking away; however, my responsibility for 4 great (well, sometimes great) employees and current clients with contracts really prevents me from doing that. Plus, I wonder if I would get really bored without the stress of the business--its ups and downs.
Thought maybe writing this out would clarify this for me. Is there some other direction I should be taking now? What is it? Whenever I look at setting business goals and developing strategies to make it happen, my mind drifts to menu planning and other non-productive activities and nothing gets done. I look for distractions (like writing this blog). While I want to feel the same enthusiasm and excitement I use to feel about my work, it seems stifled for now.
Was wondering if anyone else noticed their priorities began to change as they began to reach their weight goals or have I just reached burnout.