What bad words am I allowed to use on here?
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Okay, I want to say bad words, but I guess I have to keep it civil.
I am P^$*& and disappointed in myself and I don't even know what to do.
Here's what set me off: I took a *$&%^# Three Minute Step test to assess my cardiovascular fitness. And honestly, what I was trying to find out was whether I rated Very Good or Excellent. (On the 12 minute Cooper run test, I rate "above average") So what was my score on this test?
Yep, that's what it said. VERY POOR.
Well excuuuuuuse me, but that just isn't %(@*&% true! I run and workout 5-6 days a week. I have been doing this now steadily for 3-1/2 years so this isn't new. Off and on I've been running since 1995. I have ran countless races, including a half marathon. I usually finish about the 50th% for my age group although I actually won my age group in one small race. So I'm not a fast runner, but I can hold my own. I'm not someone struggling to bring up the rear or anything.
I run in the heat. I run up hills. I run 10 minute miles. On the days I don't run I do resistance workouts with kettlebells. On the fitness test I was taking I scored EXCELLENT in every other category - sit ups, push ups, squats, sit and reach. Not just good, but EXCELLENT! Then on the step test I score Very Poor.
I can't even think of words to describe how I feel about this. I guess I am in denial, big time. I thought that if I could go out and do a run of several miles on a hilly route on a warm day (and I do it regularly) that I was in good shape. But then I get the rude awakening which tells me that I am falling WAY short. So why the @) do I even bother? I mean what is the point? I don't want anyone telling me to "try harder" because I put forth a great deal of effort and discipline into my workout routine already - just to reach the LOWEST POSSIBLE level of fitness. :( :( :( :( :(