Monday, June 06, 2011
I really thought last year was THE YEAR that I would get it right and finally lose the weight. I was SO motivated and happy and focused. What happened? August came around and I started dreading the long winter ahead, even though it was 3 months away. I started focusing on my favorite part about autumn, baking. It wasn't even technically autumn yet! I was anticipating the long school year ahead which always makes our lives busy and a bit more stressful. I started comforting myself with all the great harvest time recipes that involve baking and sugar. If only it REALLY made me feel better in the long run. I gained back all 24 lbs that I had lost. I quit exercising, and soothed myself with food. What will I do to prevent this in the future? Now that I think I know why I lost my focus, what will I do differently this year when the school year begins again? Buck up and be an adult about it? Know that I can't have an internal "tantrum" and rebel against the work of losing weight just because I need to feel comforted by the couch and eating? I guess this is a question that I'm going to have to deal with again and again throughout my life, when things in life get stressful and I just want to "cocoon" myself.